rulethecourtz.

2008-07-13T23:43:00.001+08:00

she was so happy today =)

i feel like such an idiot for not looking at it earlier.

but... she was radiating today.

[popo and her swan clock.]

2008-07-07T22:11:00.002+08:00

so today i went out with "ixodus" to marina square and walked about!

haha yea right it was more like yiling and i and a temp junior cuz only EUGENE came. so we went to eat at new york new york where once again only i seemed to be eating (cheesy chicken mmm) then we went over to gelare for free waffle ice cream! (cuz eugene lost a very VERY stupid bet) and then moved on to marina square to watch hancock x) which btw is a very no-link show so please dont watch it unless you like will smith (which i secretly do after I Am Legend) or charlize theron who is smoking hot and they made her wear this revealing outfit during the show. yeapp then bryan caught up with us and we played bishi bashi with buttons that didnt work! rawr

AND we found this secret way to the rooftop of marina square, which has this fantastic sight. haha and strangely enough we ended up talking about sex... bryan yiling and i. very weird conversation but somehow it felt very normal. as in. aiyah whatever la. yiling talks alot lol.

SCHOOL tomorrow. bring your ODTs everyone!

2008-05-30T19:18:00.002+08:00

haha life got a lot more simpler recently, here's the breakdown:

think about mugging.
think about mugging.
think about mugging.
play computer games.
think about mugging.
think about mugging.
think about mugging.
play computer games.
mug.
play computer games.
think about mugging.

haha i guess if thats all you think about lifes not that hard anymore x)

[looking so hard for something in front of me]

2008-05-22T00:07:00.002+08:00

ALRIGHT EVERYONE I AM BACK.

in one piece. IN ONE PIECE. all that mentalphysicalemotional turmoil that i've been waging against. i think its been 6 weeks? well ok my last post was in february but my life only went over the edge in the past 6 weeks. shall we backtrack?

april 18th. MUSICFEST 2008. CINEMA PARADISO. crazy crazy day staying in the PA room panicking and praying to the bestest that everything would be great. and it was :) welco outing the weekend before that, and everything was beautiful. i love you welco <3

april 25th. DRAMA NITE 2008. NO HOLDS BARRED. crazy nights leading up to the night! crowd was unsatisfactory but the experience is one ill never forget. i love the roadrunners! and the aga cast x) i swear every year i do something more outrageous for drama x)

april 30th. COUNCIL INVESTITURE 2008. 25th SYMPHONY. emo day. stepping down as a councillor. relief and regret. but i love the councillors. for all the crazy times and i will love my committee to the end. WELCO all the way x) also my last tennis match ever. against acsi. crushed and defeated but alls well. i think the tennis boys are a great bunch x)

may 2nd. DANCE CONCERT 2008: FOOTNOTES. feeling extremely horrible for missing millions of dance rehearsals and full dresses. but in the end had a BLAST with the dancers, doing the chacha with LORRAINE! and the jive with SHAKURAA x)

may 15th. DRAMA SYF. crazy times in the PT, on the field, in the lang lab and at ACJC itself. looking for my STUPID looking costume and FREEZING in the AC pt. giving it my all and hoping for nothing more than the best. silver i guess but whos counting x)

i just want to say thank you to everyone that has been there for me. perhaps the biggest thanks i have to give to is okl, who has been seeing me through the toughest period of my college life. thank you for tolerating all my bitchings and complaings and whinings. it wouldnt have been possible without you and im really thankful that you were there. i really appreciate it.

this one goes out to ganesh who came for drama night and my investiture. thanks alot man for the words of encouragement it has really made my day x)

another to qianyu for the flower on drama night!

koganti for random chattings, help with the musicfest videos and the flower on drama night, its really been great having you as a friend :)

rui for always asking how i am, i love you too babe and i just wished i could have been there for you too! GOOD LUCK FOR TOMORROW! HOCKEY GIRLS WILL RULE THE WORLD.

oh my god how can i forget. GWYNETH TEO. for being the greatest bestest assistant welfare head/co-director ive ever had. for all the burdens that you have shared with me and the suffering that we've toiled together. thank you for always being there x)

this one goes out to the 3 of us. yl and kc for NEVER forgetting me. i love you guys alright and we WILL hang out this june i DO NOT CARE. CT2s or not, UNITE.

IXODUS! for all the birthdays that we've celebrated! yiling and nafisah for being such great kind understanding ogls x) and i LOVE my juniors did i mention that :)

07s64 for the ban mian outings x) the coolest blog ever (o7s64.livejournalcom) and for just being wild and crazy! haha fifa nights and soccer mornings x) and the WoW GANG. muaha ill start again after the As i promise!

and rayshio for well, being my best friend. LOL. 'nuff said.

and this is for the hockey boys, for the greatest hockey match ive ever seen. hockey semifinals on may 16th against RJC. you guys fought hard and played your best and i am proud of all of you.

soccer girls for the victory! im so sorry i couldnt be there! i had to settle my syf costume (and try out some new egyptian cuisine :P)

soccer boys for the intense battle. truly sad that we missed so many chances and i just hope nic kang doesnt kill himself (cuz i will!) for that goal-that-could-have-been. OH MY GODDDDD.

this last one goes out to nadia. for being a true friend. and for just being there. and for everything. just.. everything.

yeap! that sums it all up but of course there is so much to dooooo! my life has JUST begun because ALL MY CCAs ARE OVER. THROW EM OUT THE WINDOW! i mustmustmust catch up with all my friends because ive been neglecting them!

busking this sat. ova soccer too i hope! psycho test on monday. grassroots and governance in june! under no roof facilitation on the 7th and 8th! workshops! CT2s! its 90 or nothing for chem you mofos! life is NEVER dull when it comes to mine. i love you world. i just. love my life.

[so much to do, so much to see so just dump your boyfriend and go out with me!]

2008-02-20T19:38:00.002+08:00

i finally grew balls. 2 nights ago i actually called a girl to TALK. (yes i know im suffering from an ultimate loser complex, but hey everyones gotta start somewhere right)

so yea omg it is a big step in hsuantes world, haha! we just talked loads of crap for a an hour or so before we got cut off... by some unknown reason.

but yea x) ive got balllllls now

[sometimes things are just meant to be, think of it as an orange that cant be blue in colour.]

2007-12-21T23:05:00.000+08:00

hey its been some time! and todays been a GREAT day wheeee so happy actually (although i reallllly shudnt be, it felt so great) and alot has been happening in my life! too bad ive probably forgotten most of it Dx

well the one thing i cant forget is my snowboarding experience! 3 days in rusutsu resort, Sapporo, Japan. there is something about losing yourself, leaving your fate in your own hands as you plummet down an icy slope. pushing yourself to go where all your senses tell you that it is impossible, that death is imminent, but if one were not to be in mortal peril, where would all the fun be? you look at the sleet before you and come across an edge where what lies beyond is outside of your vision, the thrill of speeding down a seemingly near vertical edge only to come to satisfying stop at the bottom. the journey down is mind numbing as the only thoughts that race through your head is which way to turn and how to manipulate your body to pull it off.

granted falling hurts, but each fall only means a lesson to be learnt, how you cannot heel both feet while turning left from a toeslide, or how you must thrust yourself even further on steep slopes in order to have any chance of turning, or how you must lean back to make a left turn. each fall comes with a price, a sprained wrist, buckling knees, concussions and sore asses but the payoff is there, for i have conquered mount isola. elevation of 994 metres, more than a kilometre of sheer pleasure.

[snowboarding to the max.]

2007-11-24T21:01:00.000+08:00

heyyyy guys its almost been a month since ive logged anyhting on this blog, so you wanna work backwards, or carry off where i left off? haha ok i suppose that decisions MINE to make haha so lets work it back then shall we?

just had a musicfest meeting in the morning at 10 am, nothing particularly exciting really, just laying the ground structure of the things to come, our THEMEs finally been decided, haha but i has no name! thats so retarded. went to PP with what was left of welco for lunch, shu gwy le-anne jom at bk. haha havent eaten a whopper in a long time. after that TEAed with shu and waited for shane and nad to come. checked out borders and some clothes/accessories shops, i guess it sure beats bumming around at home playing warcraft. im down today its so weird. mum says i look grim.

ah well lets not kill the spirits just yet, alot of things have been happening within this whole month! like yesterday i conked out from 1-7pm and left mr.lee at the door when he came hahaha omg i didnt learn fields! i guess i have to read it up myself. i really need to restart studying, all the holidays and gaming is really making me sluggish/lazy which is a real threat to me.

thursday was ultimate bummage, missed tennis training and just had tuition on electricity, nothing exciting. oh yea i went to the dentist! he practically wiped my mouth out with his cleaning machine thingy. ouch sia

wednesday was latin recap, which was kind of a bummer, seeing how i cant even remember the rest of chacha. the jives fine though, just that lorraine cant do the stunt. she INSISTs its me but shes the one with the floppy arms (haha luckily she doesnt read this) yea after that just went home wondering if i needed to pull out my wisdom teeth which is cramping my appetite. gamed till night and went to meet rui at city hall, she was VIVID RED in a VIVID RED dress. chee never seen her in a dress before. we watched CHITTY CHITTY BANG BANG! which was a typical children story! but the sets were really awesome! omgggggggg i wanna do that one day after that we went down to the fullerton and chilled out at starbucks till late.

tuesday was our SUPPOSED training which ck and justin had without me, and collin thoroughly ponned, so i headed down for conditioning, which practically ripped me limb from limb! its insane how these girls can just... ERGH. dam pain sia. and they crunch for an entire song! wtf thats like 3 minutes worth of crunching non-stop wtf thats crazy wtf?! corner to corner overshot and i rushed to meet the guys for lunch. ate kfc and ck was bitching all the way about its unhealthiness, what a pussy! haha then we took this goddam long 76 all the way to yck and we slept all the way. 10 minutes away and it POURED the shitz out of the sky. but we played an hour later anyway, i was half-dead throughout the training with yang xiangs minions and i practically got pwned left right center. until the last match, where i beat the best player there 3-2. hahaha then went to plaza sing to eat the indo chicken rice. dam nice sia and then went home. saw LOTS of seniors there ahah congratulations y'all for the end of the As! woohoo ive got 365 days left before i'll be just like you x)

monday was just a day of bummage. had nothing to do, so i did nothing. played my 360 all the way till 4+++ was playing tony hawks PROVING GROUND (LOL I TYPED PROBING GROUND) dam cool la ive decided to go hardcore, career and riggings just lame. if you wanna do something, go all the way right? haha then met lonely ck at C24. disgusting wet weather made the place unsittable so i just stood on top of the pit. hahahah ate 6 subway cookies in total!! and bbqed with the full team, with hwee ling(or was it ying) shao fang, sarah and rachel. delightful bunch really, just.... that we were surrounded with mud and nothng to do. lol.

sunday? skipped church again cuz of my rash attack in the morning, woke up super late, gamed, ate dinner and slept. lifes dull. i did grab my 360 today though, i got GHIII (WOOOHOOOO), tony hawks proving ground (typed probing again), CALL OF DUTY 4(ok i had this game ALREADY *wink*) and viva pinata and forza. oh and omg dont laugh at viva pinata its pretty fun! really, growing a garden and attracting pinata is more insanely entertaining than you think.

saturday? honestly i have no idea what i did but it mustve revolved around alot of nothing! or did i go out? no right? i wouldve remembered.

friday was kinda long, conditioned, which was less insane than the more recent one, what with wei an leading it and all, counting super fast lol. cant remember what i did after conditioning... uh... i think... i bummed around with wei an then went home. bummed around and played tennis with phua and shaun. somehow my wrist gave out on me, my nerves were just biting into me i couldnt contract my fist. OUCH man. sent em off around 330 and had tuition. after that? more gaming.

wooo very long already! ill update more later. see yaaa

[DOWN DOWN DOWN.]

2007-10-27T00:50:00.000+08:00

the best birthday party ive ever had!

october 26th Friday D38 east coast park

started off slow enough, with me ALMOST not wanting to go for chinese. my clocks dead so cant really tell what time when i wake up. roughly 630 i think rushing around checking the things off my list. seriously didnt want to go for chinese but aiya! last lesson liao just go la! so off i went, in a cab cuz dad went to golf and sister had to rush to school.

chinese passed quickly enough, i got a C for chinese mock exam! stunned man. then it was OGL briefing. im in IVANHOEEEEE with yirui as the OG head. wanted wye min to be but he wouldve been my next choice haha and im in IXODUS which was a name chosen by RAFISAH whose part of my OG, together with yiling and melissa lim! and im crewlette head so there goes my phone bill again haha IVANHOEs a pretty well balanced bunch, but not without the highness im SURE!

after OG briefing, hung around the council room for a while... deciding what to do. juiced up my radio, left it there and went for lunch with jeanne and camille. theyre a interesting bunch to hang out with, really REALLY girly haha. fun nevertheless! ate at treatz and found the indos there! haha ate fish porridge cuz of my potential sore throat x( yeap then went to ECP and hung around while waiting for a small portion of SC to come. beached a while, then walked all the way to D38.

the food weighed a tonne which ara and i were tasked to carry, and eventually got camille and ray to help out. i have officially learnt how to set the charcoal! dam cool la i can make fantastic charcoal now that burns nice and warm x) so like the whole world was late started cooking round 6.30ish when i said 5pm but i suppose that was a good call to set the time early! so apparently the satays werent thawed yet but no one needs to know that haha the guys that came played lots of soccer while ray and i cooked and camille/jeanne walked about!

things got a lot more busy later when my OG and Class mates came! rawr CLIC didnt come so sad! yea so i had to transit between the different groups of people but eventually they had their own thing to do so it wasnt that bad! took pictures with everyone! but its still mainly conquered by camillle/jeannes camwhoring antics. yea then the cake came and the party went into a frenzy.

blew the cake out, cream smashed into my face and all hell broke loose. tired liao tomorrow elaborate some more hahahah

[the slippery slope.]

2007-10-20T23:25:00.000+08:00

FINALLY FOUND A PLAY.

I HOPE IT GETS THROUGH.

IT MUST IT MUST IT MUST.

I WANT TO DIRECT!

YES YES YES.

THERE IS HOPE.

[a glimmer of hope, fading slowly away.]

2007-10-19T01:06:00.000+08:00

haha i love getting high in court.

was serving to CK in doubles, smacked it right through and ran to the net, he put it back and i slammed it past colin slightly into his half, but CK used his imba agil stats to backhand it, FLOATING, into justins side. haha i couldnt help it im sorry.

i saw it floating, laughed, no CACKLED really loudly, and cut into justins half and angle-smashed that stupid mother #)(%#)^ piece of _)#%(#% of a ball.

WOOOOO.

im the albatross baby.

[everyone loves the legs.]

2007-10-17T23:08:00.001+08:00

you will see this post over and over again next year. a sure way to suicide?

1. O1 OGL.
2. ELECTS CAMP.
3. MUSICFEST.
4. DANCE PERFORMANCE.
5. TENNIS SEASON.
6. DRAMA NIGHT.
7. DRAMA SYF.
8. INTERNSHIP AT MINDEF

one dead boy.

[ready, get set, GO.]

2007-10-16T21:31:00.000+08:00

i got owned. seriously pwned. just imagine me being knocked out by this enormous creature with like big big arms and legs.

im lying lifeless, losing blood by the pint.

then a whole bunch of teens come around with shovels and start to smack me.

after that a tanker drives over me and spills oil over me.

then a smoking old man tosses his cigarette onto me, incinerating me.

now all i am is a pile of ashes.

and THEN the ion cannon BEAMS down over me.

thats how owned i am.

[needs to jump out the window now.]

2007-10-15T00:18:00.000+08:00

like a roller coaster ride, the past few days have been a blast! but its all over now x(

SUNDAY 14/10
went out with celle to the beach at around 12+, she was the one who woke me up in the first place haha and she was LATE, so typical celle behaviour. ate a lunch at macs and walked around the beach for a while, the sand was so soft x)
after that grabbed a cab all the way to chun hans house, 15 bucks right there, for our CLIC outing AT LAST. after like 5 months of deliberating, we finally have our CLIC outing, although it wasnt really an OUTING, nor was it our entire CLIC, JJ and tina were MIA, otherwise it was pretty good. mahjonged for a few rounds which my luck was just rotten. then watched pursuit of happiness which was so emo x( then came DINNER. OMG. chun han had whipped up like a whole chicken, a mountain of sweet and sour chicken i think, nuggets, fish fingers, vegetables AND soup. i ate one and a half before giving up x) talked, gossiped and bitched! haha in front of me somemore wa lauuu. then we watched taxi and played pyramid between ads, not bad managed to get everyone to try out! it was pretty fun for a while but then got sick of it haha then decided to go to the japanese cem and along the way laura ditched us for *ah hem* and in the end the cem was closed oh well. sherwin went off then and the long wait for 76 gave us the appetite for prata. just as we were about to leave, 76 arrived so we took it ONE stop down to the prata house haha. i ate cheese and tissue prata! not bad really hahaha swapped slippers with chun han and went home x)

SATURDAY 13/10
spent hari raya sleeping in till one, then spent the noon reading the KITE RUNNER. actually read it all the way till 4 am the next day. nothing else eventful happened, just a lazy saturday x)

FRIDAY 12/10
omg mass dance was just torture, no one wanted to dance x( WHHYYY VJC. so everyone just left. finally greased my stupid bike and it stopped squeaking! yessssss. went out with the class to ECP for a lengthy day of cycling. mustve done over 30 km of cycling man until dammmm shag. poor phua lost his wallet, i feel for him really seeing how he just remade his ez link card. ah well stayed back with waihong cuz both of us were so tired to catch up with the rest of the class that was speeding along. then spent the about 3 hours at the beach, throwing people, sandballing them, making castles... fun la! just that i got uber burnt and chao ta but now my feet look for homogeneous with my body x)

THURSDAY 11/10
ponned school to sleep in, came back to take the crest banner down, then train! after that went out with kai li for dinner who was coincidentally in the odac room doing pw, how lucky of me! then went to kaikengs house to crash his OGs sleepover as usual. walked in the middle of the road in the middle of the night haha then mahjonged till 3 am and fell asleep.

woo DRAMA NIGHT IS NEXT YEAR! i soooo want to direct a comical romantic tragedy! what an oxymoron! who wants to direct with me?? i am so excited x)

so many things to do so many things to see so dump your boyfriend and go out with ME!

ten reasons why tennis players are hawt stuff

2007-09-26T20:10:00.000+08:00

1. tennis players are ready for anything any time.
we do suicides with both feet on the line. we dont need the "strong leg" to give us the boost. just say go and we're gone. that makes us a whole second quicker than others, without the "strong leg"

2. tennis players know how to stay in line.
whether its singles or doubles we know the rules, the ball stays in court. but we do know how to live dangerously too, thats why they call it "on the line"

3. tennis players dont quit till its over.
whether its first to 9 games, a set or 5 of em, we play till the end. we're there through and through until the games over. then we miss every second of it after that.

4. tennis players know where and when to hit.
its placement over power, we know when to change direction when what we're doing isnt working. otherwise we just drill to the backhand, over and over again.

5. tennis players fear nothing.
standing at the net and taking smashes is a feat few have ever pulled off. its one thing to still be standing there, and its another to return it.

6. tennis players are committed 100%
when the opponent takes a drop, we go for the ball until its stop beating on the ground. if the ball hasnt bounced twice, we can still put it back.

7. tennis players arent afraid to show their softer side.
we lob when we see fit, and we arent afraid to do it. many points have been won with balls flying below 30 miles per hour. even the pros do it.

8. tennis players dare to be creative.
topspin, underspin, side spin and the casual pop, we've done it. there isnt a way to hit the ball that we havent tried, some include the handle shot and the classic between-the-legs shot.

9. tennis players are a jack of all trades, master of one.
we've got the arms from our strokes, the abs from the follow through and the legs from the positioning. we have focused hand-eye coordination and tactical analysis skills. there is no sport we cannot play.

10. tennis players are never alike, but not really that different.
different folks, different strokes or so they say, we've got what it takes to get the job done, just that there isnt one straight path that we follow. its an adventure with a tennis player everyday, never knowing what we might pull off next.

haha yes so the next time you feel like going to the hall to check out the volleyballers, or the pitch for the soft ballers, drop by the tennis courts, and you wont regret it xD

i got bored, and chems tomorrow, good luck to all o you!

[NOODLE.]

2007-09-24T11:49:00.000+08:00

so economics is tomorrow and it marks the 2/6th of the horrendous promotional examinations. screw you arts fackers who end on thursday! i happen to take physics on friday sooooo i hope you all dont have too much fun x) i am so sadistic. but hey might as well bring em down with you eh? lol i didnt even mention that farewell assembly is the friday after that and the monday on that week is my CHINESE exam. my favourite! (lie to yourself often enough and it becomes the truth)

i am ashamed to say that i have lost almost all my gaming senses, i can no longer drift as far as i used to, headshot as often as i did and move that crosshair fast enough. my instinctive reflexes to knowing where those afghans are have waned. and to think im eyeing the 360 for my *cough* birthday *HAAACKkkkk* *ah hem*

well there are many games out now on the market ripe for the picking its a whole frickin orgy out there! assassins creed, halo 3 for the diehards, burnout PARADISE, nfs PROstreet and omg my all time favourite GUITAR HERO III. woot cant wait to try out that wireless guitar shit. and there are many things to look forward to such as TomClancy's EndWar, which apparently has voice commands so you can command your troops to move about. itd be interesting if you could hear your units talk back, like "*#)(#% you commander thats suicide!" or "i miss my wife and kids" hahah itd be kinda funny, the graphics look good enough. also up for grabs is ninja gaiden II which is GORY as ever, just cuz the 360 has better graphics dont mean you can splatter blood whereever you go yknow? well and theyve given ryu sissy weapons like the claws... its like a bitchy ryu slapping creatures, what are they thinking?! hopefully i get to hone my thumb coordination with a spanking new 360 after the bloody promos, who cares about OP? not mee.

moving on i really miss GYLC! i miss so many people and the way shynar grabbed my waist in one faithful morning. HAHA that REALLY woke me up when i was grabbing my bread. but thats NOT what i miss, i mean, its a memorable event, that whole waist grabbing thing, she was just looking for a lapdog to carry her luggage really, oh well cant really complain. anyway i miss emily!! the spastic japanese/usa girl whos so sweet! and yea well everyone else but i just happened to think of emily when someone mentioned her name. haha i was wondering where i had heard of that name before... and BAM. GYLC nostalgia just washed over me. rawr i miss all my friends! aditi the awesome belgian who was so cute/sad cuz she was the only one from her country there so she hung out with the 60-strong singaporeans lol. miss you guys all! and nicole magalong! the amazing girl from the philipines! woot ill write to you soon i promise.

yeap just missing people that i probably wont get to see for a really long time and my times up for blogging! gotta go memorise all my econs stuff now! tata and take care!

[for what its worth... i hope things turn out ok alright? alright ok! ]

2007-09-24T09:05:00.001+08:00

i go this way and you go that way ok?

are you SUREEee thats gonna work?

trust me! i know what im doing!

uh huh.

*tinkers*
okay here we go!

.... .... ....

erm. what... exactly are we supposed to be looking at?

Stupid Graham Shrinder Bo Effect. What a load of bullcrap!!! hahaha and i fell for it. thanks alot sis xD

[turn around 3 times while clucking like a chicken and SCREAM!]

2007-09-20T06:46:00.000+08:00

good morning singapore! its been a nice and hectic period for almost everyone that i know proper, J2s, J1s and sec 4s alike! so many things have happened and its been a whirlwind of adventure these past few days especially!

haha climbing the roof, eating dinner, making impactful discussions that *ahem* turn heads woot and lots of things that rock la

omg promos are gonna be over soon! nooooooo

what did i just say? whoops x)

its NOT the studying im gonna miss you KNOW that right

its the people i studied with! ill miss ya all!

and currently right now im constipated, after having a bout of diarrhoea...so urgh

and i double space muaha to make the post look longer and its easier to read anyway

physics spa in 3 hours and GP tmrwWWW. please let me do well x( and i havent started studying ECONS. suicidal aye x( i hope i can make it through!

otherwise i dont really care anyway haha a B for econs? might as well aim for A since im deluding myself in the first place anyway.

ok! see ya guys around, and around, and around, or just over there la sheesh

[all i have to do is stick my wand out]

2007-08-31T12:37:00.000+08:00

so many things have gone unsaid, so many things have gone undone, so many dreams have gone unfufilled, so many people have gone without getting to know them better.

every single day slips by so quickly, the next day always eager to invade our lives. i no longer have time to pen down everything that happens, so many memories that will go unremembered, the trials and tribulations of life, the happiness and the sorrows. the mistakes that i've made, the triumphs i've had. my whole life is whizzing by and soon i wont have anything to remember it by.

even friends come and go, nothing is for sure, only change.

[hit the stop button.]

2007-08-04T13:40:00.000+08:00

so dad came for college day in the end. somehow it didnt feel worth all the trouble.

anyway after college day the council band went jamming together with melody! it was joels and my first time jamming and the studio was awefully small at joo chiat. it was really fun playing all the expensive equipment and we actually sounded quite good! very fun stuff. playing national day songs until late has become quite addictive lol.

the past week has been a very... good week for the lack of a better word. let's just say i've been very lucky for the past week haha its been pretty good i feel great whenever i think about it. alright enough about it seriously just kudos to jeanne for such a great field closing ceremony. finally the fields been closed to be renoed for astro turf.

yeap otherwise the weeks have been long dull and boring, the weather is stifling and everyones just moody. promos are coming soon and i have no mood to mug. bother.

[your love is the sweetest sin.]

2007-07-22T23:03:00.000+08:00

just wanna say im kinda bummed out by dad. again. and again and again and again. thanks alot ole man. nothing like not attending college day to see me on stage. farewell assembly was a no-show either. YOU ARE NEVER EVER THERE.

and you still expect the best out of me. i dont even know why i do this for you. just... once... dad... theres nothing like being there for your son.

[top grades, scholarship, but theres no glory in being the top.]

2007-07-21T20:01:00.000+08:00

its been quite an adventure the past few days! lots of things have happened i think, although im not quite sure what happened. today was the EDB dialogue, which was a rather waste of time, except that ive started thinking of my university applications already. earlier before that i went to buy harry potter, because there was no queue in mph so i just strolled in, took a minute to pick a nicer looking book and bought it on the spot. ta daa. save the pre-order. came back to sleep the day away and here i am!

on friday it was RACIAL HARMONY DAY! wore the same thing i wore 2 years ago, but o well it was pretty fun taking pictures left right center. the girls were of course dressed very prettily (cuz back then they didnt see the sense in male fashion, so the guys looked the same.) in all their different costumes. there was this girl from URSA who wore the japanese wedding costume which was absolutely stunning. took many many pictures with the 24ths! i soo wanted to take a picture with someone in a kimono! but i didnt know any of them x(

after that was usher duty at funtasia at NUS cultural hall. was really boring except for after the intermission where we could use the vip lounge. joel did a really good job managing us though! *applauds* yea alot of camwhoring took place there because it was really boring our duties. left at around 10 and was dead beat after that!

i skipped school on wednesday cuz i had diarrhoea (seriously) and spent the whole day slacking at home doing nothing, absolutely nothing. felt really good to do that yknow! like recharging my batteries. thursday went shopping with nadia to get ruis and shus presents! monday... was rainy and i went running after it stopped, slacked and went home. tuesday was training, and tweety talked to me! wooo xD

yeap tomorrows ruis birthday at the botanic gardens! looking forward to it! see ya later~

[because tomorrows always another day]

2007-07-08T22:52:00.000+08:00

What Be Your Nerd Type? Your Result: Drama Nerd You sure do love the spotlight and probably have a very out-going and loud personality. Or not. That's just a stereotype, of course. Participation in the theatre is something to be very proud of. Whether you have a great voice for musicals, or astounding skills for dramas/comedies; keep up the good work. We need more entertainment these days that isn't television and video games (not that these things are bad, necessarily.)
Science/Math Nerd
Gamer/Computer Nerd
Literature Nerd
Musician
Artistic Nerd
Anime Nerd
Social Nerd
What Be Your Nerd Type? Quizzes for MySpace

2007-07-08T12:45:00.000+08:00

as i stand on the top a mountain, i gaze down at the icy landscape that stretches as far as the eye can see. on my left is the ski lift that carries passengers up to various levels on the mountain and where I was carried to the very top. Few dare to climb such great heights, for the journey back down is a long and dangerous one. A chilly gust of wind is deflected by my thick winter wear, but pierces my unprotected face like a frozen blade. My maroon visor shields my eyes from the snow that reflects the strong sunlight, and already a path begins to form in my head, the quickest route to the bottom the mountain.

As my boots click into my snowboard, i take my last few breaths, enjoying my last few moments standing at the pinnacle of the mountain. Teetering on the edge, i ready myself, preparing for the intense adrenaline rush that is about to ensue. Long have i awaited this day, to finally conquer the mountain.

And then i pushed off.

i a sooooo gonna learn how to snowboard. and im gonna like snowboard every once a year at least. and ill visit a different country each time i go boarding. so for now im gonna learn japanese cuz my first stop: hokkaido, japan. after that ill learn spanish so that i can go conquer that awesome mountain i saw there. omg i am just dying to go boarding. seriously feel like running all the way to japan now. to all those who wish to go snowboarding together, let me know.

[grab your boards, its time to see whos king of the hill.]

2007-07-05T22:24:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wonder if im killing myself.

yes, its the age old balance between the many commitments in my life. where it was once drama, peer support and tennis, the priorities have shifted, things have changed and now its council, tennis and drama. haha i still remember the times when drama was everything i lived and breathed. i loved drama. it was a dream. memorising my script day and night, speaking my scripts out loud all of a sudden in school. haha im getting waves of nostalgia since emdd 07 is well this saturday. cham called me out of the blue, saying she missed the old times, and well deep inside, i suppose i do too. x) it was a rollercoaster ride of emotions but it was worth all the blood sweat and tears.

this year, things have changed. council is now everything. i suppose its because of the exco position, but really, i think that council creates a real sense of belonging, especially with the room and all to hang out in. the people, the energy, the support from everyone! whats there not to commit to? yea well tennis takes second place cuz of the 4 of us. chengkai collin me and justin. we're like this bunch of dudes that love tennis and train 100% the physical training is a total pain but we all feel it together (; cant wait. sadly dramas dropped to the bottom despite people telling me last year vjc was known for their ARTs. i dont think they even care about me theres no sense of committment or belonging to the drama club. at least they dont have jts. id just quit on the spot. but hey ive had a great experience in drama dont get me wrong xD just wish theyd involve me more. i dont even know whos in exco!

anyway back to the reason why i think im killing myself. currently i am sore and aching from top to bottom. ive a sprained finger, an ankle that got stepped on, a calf that cant move my foot and open wounds from sliding and diving x( ive also spent time with so many people that i dont really feel a strong friendship from a particular person, just like so-so from everyone. dont get me wrong i love everyone x) its just that well... its me. i have no time for everyone x( just some close friends that i have, in and out of school. only for you guys ill pinch time for yall xD

sigh. lifes so good and yet so bad at the same time. i passed chinese! 55 pts despite failing my main paper. my essay was a whopping 41/60 which was an awesome pull off. woot im so happy about that. im also one of two people who got the GIC study award in VJC. its 1500 bucks per annum but ive got to do well in my exams which brings me to my next point: i got an A for maths! i barely scraped it but who cares haha. oh and subway is finally going to start next week! thats an exciting prospect xD i hope the response will be fantastic!

alright thats that i suppose. ill see you guys next time round. dont worry about it when life gets tough alright? there're probably people out there whos got it tougher than you, so dont take it too hard.

[life never gets so bad that it cant get any worse.]

2007-06-30T23:18:00.000+08:00

nothing happens by accident. everything happens for a reason.

its not what you are underneath, its what you do that defines you.

no one knows you do something until you dont do it.

as long as no one saw you do it, then you did nothing.

speak and be heard. be quiet and be forgotten.

people ignore a shout but strain to hear a whisper.

a smile concealing a frown is like a knife behind your back.

running fast is one thing, where're you're running to is another.

what doesnt kill you, probably beat you up pretty bad.

talking is overrated, do it.

xD.

2007-06-09T23:30:00.000+08:00

so. this is it. 3 hours away. i wonder if itll be fun. i wonder wonder wonder...

im off to newyork! last time i went there, i was in my mothers womb gestating. hopefully the experience will be different this time haha. will let you guys know how it goes!

[if you missed me, i probably missed you too.]

2007-06-05T07:45:00.000+08:00

an hour or more and ill be moving house! as unexciting as the prospect seems to be, im actually looking forward to a nice clean un-untidy room. but of course the fact that im going to be living there now means itll get untidy there too, but at least there arent lizards up there.

dont get me wrong, i LOVE those little things, they eat all the little teeny weeny insects in my room, but they are SOOO annoying at night when they make those stupid noises. anyway i dont know if i should bring my speaker set upstairs. we already have bang and olufsen up there, maybe a little altec lansing for some competition? good music can never be compromised.

also... i took down my board of memoribilla! (or however you spell that stupid word.) it brings backs alot of memories. haha i still have nadias coffee bean handkerchief xD which i kept for some strange reason. also have lots of pictures and lots of tickets of plays and shows that ive gone to... brings back memories..

yea moving on i hate studying btw, it kills your brain.

[dont drop it till you drop.]

2007-06-02T18:15:00.000+08:00

hey hey you you! did you know im so dead for my studies? i only have 7 days left in singapore before i have to jet to NEW YORK city!! omg so excitingg. and darren said im killing myself with all these things... HES the one going to some institute of physics -_- i wanna go lor!

anywaywe're moving house soon! just gonna carry some stuff up 15 storeys. how exciting. im bringing my classical up and leaving the electric here cuz the amp is shoooo heavy. WELCO meeting was so diao, only 5 people came! disappointed! but aiya what to do, we dont really have an agenda anyway. had mass dance practice after that with jeanne lol. we dont even know the steps right so malu! we gonna practise every week from now on xD

im also gonna do physical training from now till end june. dont wanna become all soft and weak! its a definite nono and i dont know if i should go out during my short lifespan of 7 days. help meeee.

[and to think i even wore her favourite colour.]

2007-05-31T21:16:00.001+08:00

im back from CLIC! first 5 minutes that we met each other. amazinwowza that was a blast! and its been a social headache cuz it was RIGHT after preu seminar and i had to make new friends AGAIN (although im not really complaining) yea but it was definitely more productive than preu seminar considering how much i slept during that period of time. well CLIC was basically how to manage your CCA better and stuff with all those lessons on communication, making judgement calls and all that hoo haa. tennis didnt send anyone! so much for that. the station games were really fun and our group (the JUMPING JELLY BEANS) CLICked really well in theg eh? so okay we didnt win 1st, 2nd or 3rd, but who really cares about winning anyway? its the process that matters xD

i only have 10 days left before i have to leave (AGAIN) for NEWYORK. seriously dont know how im gonna study and right now my sisters lying on my bed trying to get me to work. lol. so i shall, cuz i listen to my big sis. heres a shot of JJB! without me x( cuz i was the one that took it.

2007-05-26T11:09:00.000+08:00

hey i'm back from pre-u seminar! omg its been so fantastically fun i wanna go agaiN! (if i had the time) its actually a very rare opportunity for me to meet all the powerful people in singapore and i have to be very grateful for it. although... i didnt really pay much attention to it cuz such things bore me to bits and pieces. got to see all the parallel presentations from other schools which were pretty interesting. some were good while others sucked. but anyway didnt actively participate in all these things which i kinda regret. panel discussions too were pretty cool, but i slept through most of it. at night was the best times during the seminar, where SG02 spent the whole night there playing loads of cards and mind games (courtesy of me) till the whee hours of the morning. our SLOs were with us too! thats the best part! cuz they closed one eye haha. zomg it was ultimately fun.

well what else is there to talk about? i have just tonnes of work to do and im doing it right now! in the council room! haha i love the school and sadly the school "loves" me back! if u get what i mean.. *cough* i have CLIC camp tomorrow! looking forward to it! wheeee! then i come back and MUG for a WEEK before going to NEW YORK! <3

gotta meet WELCO soon! i miss the gang and our meetings! lots of issues to settle anyway. yea haha darrens just implemented standard meeting times! im so happy! like just in overall cuz i got to see victorians today back in school haha im such a fanatic.

alright enjoy the pic yo and if u wanna be in it must take picture with me! sorry darren! we never cam whore together before xP

[if i close my eyes, its all the same]

2007-05-13T16:55:00.000+08:00

its been a long time since ive been here. what has been happening? tennis has been happening. drama has been happening. council has been happening. preu sem has been happening. lots of stupid tests have been happening. interviews have been happening.

lets start of with council shall we? since the 2nd of may i am now a full-fledged councillor. exco meetings every saturday are pretty fun! we get to discuss so many things about council. ive been hanging out alot in the council room and its really fun to be there cuz you get a random person that you know in there most of the time. for the past few nights (yes nights) RECO has been occupying the place, mostly cuz of SDD, but wheres the FECO? and WELCO!? so i thought, okay its time we had a WELCO meeting. on friday! 10 of us marched to ECP and had subway dinner (after dunking jiahao) and well, had a meeting on WELCO related stuff. after that we packed and cleaned the council room! i am SO proud of it please xD

moving on to an earlier topic, drama nite 2007 was a blast! although it pales to comparison to EMDD 06, it was still pretty good! after weeks of rehearsals and scolding from renee it was SHOWTIME on the 27th april! it was really really fun and i got to know britney a little better! i used to think she was all scary and bitchy but shes actually quite a nice person... if youre lucky. haha whoops anyway i will never ever talk about my experience with a male washing machine.

then theres tennis! yes tennis has been grueling. tennis elbow put me out of 3 matches but we're doing fine now and i didnt play on friday cuz yang xiang mixed the doubles and let some guy get experience for singles. right now all we got to do is beat the living daylights out of SAJC and we're into the semis! hooray! i love tennis. smacking that shit up and down the court xD

preu sems about to begin, and my group is... pretty okay la! we look like a good lot, although we seriously need a group name besides SG2. had a super long boring briefing in the morning and i kept falling asleep. after that it was a bunch of ice breakers and this guy named paul is damn funny la. everyone kept calling his name out cuz it was so easy to remember/say out loud. after that stayed back for tech runs since i was MMM, or no longer am, because im not qualified with my total lack of skills! but i finally managed to cut my hair xD

workloads been total hell for me. and it will be for the rest of the month and thereafter. i dont know how im ever gonna catch up. so thats all for my life! updated.

[who. whAT. WHERE?!]

2007-04-03T21:11:00.000+08:00

I was at Orchard Road this morning, partying, when a RUDE ANG MOH come by and GRAB MY ASS!!!!!!!!!
I was so shocked I immediately took off my slipper and SMACKED HIM OVER THE HEAD. But you know what the fucker did? HE IGNORED ME AND CONTINUE TO GRAB MY ASS!!!! I was going to confront the RUDE ANG MOH further, but I was scared he might punch my fragile new fake nose, deforming it permanently and leaving me ugly forever. :( So I walked away quietly.SO ANGRY! For a split second I contemplated putting the RUDE ANG MOH into the microwave just so it will die in the most horrible way possible.
I am so fucking irritated with that RUDE ANG MOH! So what if he is a RUDE ANG MOH? Doesn't mean he can just GRAB MY ASS like that. If every single RUDE ANG MOH come and GRAB MY ASS, I still need to live meh?!!

P.S. this blog was autogenerated. haha from kennysia.com

[no medal for the good guy. go home, theres nothing for you here.]

2007-03-28T23:47:00.000+08:00

hey its been a long time since ive been here, those who rarely came probably dont come here anymore either, so what am i doing here? its my diary so i come and go as i want. hmmph.

yeap so as usual its been really busy, i have alot of committments to alot of things which i want to do, but it leaves me with very little time to do things that i want x( well ive been reflecting on it, and theres this voice in my head that tells me itll all be over by may. hopefully. tennis nationals, drama night and investiture. oh no! i have pre-u sem after that! doh. and then theres the GYLF which i have yet to pay for. (6000 dollars. ouch.)

ive been coming back past 10 pm every night cuz of cheerleading which i think is really fun! i got to bond with a whole bunch of people and yea its been a really new experience. just that i come home really sore and all from carrying girls all over the place. i hope shara stays in cheerleading! shes a real nice person but shes been missing out on cheerleading practices.

so the josephians have been recalled back to founders day and i was saboed into being the guy in charge to lias with ms. joanna. its really REALLLY frustrating and disgusting and ergghhhhhhhhh! nevermind. i shall just demand a stupid letter from sji or worst come to worst just pon school on that day altogether. tmd.

preu sem deadline for 8 minute video report is really tight and i hope that everything turns out alright in the end. im under tremendous amounts of stress right now and i feel very irresponsibe in my work. o man. maybe i did take on too many things. sigh. oh well. nothing to do now but take it all in my stride. darren's been a real role model for me. hes the i/c of so many things and he still manages (although i dont see whats beneath the surface.) but yea. really wanted him for president.

morning duties are about to start soon and i think its gonna be fun to press the bell. hahahaha. so fun! yea then leaving the gate to let the person climb over like the SC dude back then. apparently there are 2000 chairs that we need to move and yea.

AIR07 was today and it was kinda interesting, albeit a bit boring at some points. ran around grabbing footage of the place and i think i can make an interesting video. haha so fun. if i had the dam time =_-. im super tired right now. cant wait to go to the night safari this saturday. its gonna be fun and i get to use my infra red nightvision! so funnn.

yeap. i really want to stand out in SC but i guess thats not gonna happen. with tennis... drama... pre u sem... gylf... i dunno somehow ive lowered the level of commitment to all the different activites. like... distribution you know? they're all evenly distributed and thats why my committment is so low to all of em. sigh. i wish i could do more.

well one good thing was tennis training on tuesday. it was totally awesome. brought two rackets cuz i was SO sure my string was gonna break. so i kept smacking that ball to kingdom come, but the stupid strings didnt break! fuzz. it did however result in me looking very enthu in the courts and scoring 26 points. haha we rock. cant wait for nationals.

yeap gotta squash a day long of videography for the pre u sem on sat, rush down to mandai and hang with my class mates and hopefully ill go mugging with naddy on sunday before watching music and lyrics. ah yes. mugging. its been a long time since ive done that.

speaking about work ive still gotta email sji to get me the stupid letter, chem tutorials and econs tutorials and erm. what was it.... shit tehre was something but i cant remember. anyway i should start work now! will blog back SOON. i promise.

[its all in the shorts. bounce hop smack and the point is all over.]

2007-03-08T23:17:00.000+08:00

hey its been a while since ive been here and cuz ive been really busy with stuff, yea just here to update a bit on everything thats been happening.

first of all, i currently have 3 CCAs. people say that i'll either die from stress/drop a cca/go crazy. so far none of the three have happened but i forsee it getting a bit tougher during the nationals. i'm in student council, tennis and drama right now. SC takes the bulk of what i've got to do, tennis trains X2 a week and drama is like... what drama?

alright so in SC we've just finished O2 and its been really fun, particularly so because I was MaDIC for the event and i know how to do every single VJC dance! alright how cool is that. yea.. but the sad thing is some of the elects didnt make it back for JAE and i think that TOTALLY SUCKS. this goes out to zeyi, dominic, shaza and tian long (if you guys even know this blog exists) i'll miss you all alright! i'm completely bummed out that you guys didn't make it back.

tennis was alright, i only attended one training so far and it rained on that day, after that they cancelled training for two weeks to let the seniors study for the common tests -_- and on monday i've got a SPEX tournament... AFTER cheerleading.

oh yes i have a few ECAs! like... the Pre-U Seminar in may, the Global Youth Leaders Forun in June and Cheerleading for sports day!

the Pre-U sem is basically this 5-day homestay at NTU hostel (they kicked the hostelites out for us =D) and i'm currently multimedia manager for the 25-man team. like wtf? my multimedia skills are toilet compared to my current 4-man multimedia team. oh yea interview was kinda weird but i'm so glad i got through. it's gonna be a really eye-opening experience! so funn.

yea then there's the GYLF. the only sucky thing is that ganesh didnt get through! oh mannn.. thats like totally bummer man. it's not going to be as fun without him =( oh yea the trip is basically to New York for a week or so and we meet other foreigners and like... chat or something haha i have no idea but it's going to be so fun!

then there's cheerleading, which i joined because i think its so fun. first trainings on monday (other houses have begun since like... last week) but whee! i decided to give up my role as emcee/announcer for sports day (which i also think is fun) for cheerleading, because i want URSA to win! yeaa! so taking over me and camille is jeanne and joel! JJ haha.

alright back to drama, the first few weeks where we met up was fun cuz of all the theatre games we played. met ganesh who's the whackiest guy in vjc i've met and he rocks okay haha. yea jeanne's in drama too haha and she rocks too!

then... there's the Stacy's Mum video which i produced for the class which was totally fun. the deadline was a little stressful when my camera broke down and I couldn't upload the video but my wonderful sister went to a data recovery shop and all was saved =D yup

hmm. there's so much more to talk about but i'm really tired so i think i'll stop here for now. i finally got my google acc so now i probably post more often haha.

[the only thing worse than dying is watching others around you die.]

2007-01-28T13:30:00.000+08:00

hey guys! its been one helluva week and im here to just fill up some cracks. anyway the post below was about some fag who bumped into my grandma. thanks to all who listened! it saved the boys life. haha. yea so lets back track k?

sea regetta games was really fun! (yea really long ago i know.) although i kinda sucked at the biathlon. my partner came in and gave me a monster lead but i lost it... all the way to last. haha! eh but i had a lousy breakfast ok, i kinda puked twice while running. fortunately one of the HnF peeps kept pushing me on, thanks alot man i owe you. so after that i find my OG and what happens? i get carried away and dunked into the water. -_- ok acutally i enjoyed it cuz i was so shagged. then sand balls! haha yea so we had games etc etc it was really great fun xD.

managed to move from S48 to S64! at first i felt really guilty about it, but jonathan told me that as long as i felt guilty, he forgave me. ok so after that i felt much better. jomaine and marianne moved class too! man chinese class would have been just with vanessa -_- yea so S64 seems to be much more fun, but at the cost that they arent muggers! haha well what a trade off. im gonna make S64 participate in the musicfest 2007! i dont care haha i already planned everything out.

so yea been going out and stuff and signed up for cheerleading for URSA, but the cheers suck to the max x( yea gotta come up with some new ones haha. SC results tomorrow! i hope i get in, haha then lorna and me will represent aldo haha. oh yea cycled to school with kaikeng in the rain. kinda.. wet. yeap

had a couple of class outings already and its been pretty fun overall.

mm hmm i hope you all been having fun!

[and then the pain was gone.]

2007-01-24T21:07:00.000+08:00

everything was going just fine until today.

i really dont know anymore.

i want to hold on but im going to have to let go.

eventually.

if i hold on, itll be harder to let go.

but if i let go now... ill wish i held on a little more.

i really... dont know.

i try to block it out. i try. but it just comes back. everytime.

and theres nothing i can do about it.

its fighting the inevitable.

hoping when you know the outcome.

is that called despair?

(im going to kill that boy. i swear by my honour. he will suffer. god damn him.)

2007-01-06T14:39:00.000+08:00

orientation camp is over! its been a fantastic 3 days, meeting new people and doing tonnes of stupid things.

day1 began with dad dropping me off at school. first thing i did, was walk across the road (away to VJC haha) and went to nadias house. man she has such a view of her house! its really fantastic. ate what was supposedly cheese prata (no offense, but... it was bad. haha) then we left for vjc. registration was utterly chaotic. people everywhere. poor nadia, there was only one row for ARTS. hahaha there were at least 10 for science. anyways it took quite some time to collect my gear and then report to the hall, which was utterly boring. oh no! theres a new principal! NOOO. i liked the old one x( sigh yea so super long and dull speech on subject combos etc etc. after that was ice breakers! haha my group has 4 guys and 10 girls. according to my OGL xin ying VJC population is 30 percent male only. whoopee? yea so we got to introduce ourselves and stuff. was kinda cool really, cos before everyone settled down, we were already like introducing ourselves. after that was games which werent particularly exciting. lunched. and the rest of the day was extremely tiring. finished at 6! man. went out with nadia to collect her specs. seemed like she knew the whole parkway there. haha note to self, bring a paper bag, not to cover my head, but to cover hers HAHA.

day 2 was probably a bit more exciting, wet games haha. yea went around playing all the stupid games and stuff. we played cinderella, which was kinda funny, i took all the shoes and just anyhow grab and returned them to jenny. god there was so much screaming it was completely incomprehensive. yea the games were more fun than yesterdays. so we learnt the friendship dance today and dunno how i landed in thaddeus so i got to dance with some stranger, whose name is huiting (not so strange anymore huh?) haha she was a good sport to dance like that xD yea nothing much after that everyone was too tired to go for OG dinner. (haha sin i know who you danced with tts why didnt ask you ^^)

day 3 was like, yesterday. we got to go to our classes. OMG. i got posted to a IP class. 22 peeps are IP and only 3 guys arent. me, zhi er and ming yang. sian la. nvm. monday gonna appeal for class change heh. it was so sian lor. even if i cant make the appeal, at least shan shans in the same class as me. haha she practically gaped when i entered the room. sigh my OGLs assured me i should be able to get my class changed. otherwise.. more sinister methods have to be used muaha. well i won the biggest ego competition! haha x( yea 700 pts which didnt matter anyway another crew won. yea after the day ended i met valerie! from nadias group whos actually my neighbour. she lives 3 floors above me haha! such a small world. after that went for dinner with OG and played mindless mind games. haha dam fun la.

yea i also joined the vjc biathlon on monday. o m g. my partners 2.4 timing is 10.3! aahhhh!!! thats FASTER THAN ME. WTH? well i suppose i have to work double time then. shes good and i cannot let her down right? dam nervous lor. yun-xuan. whee. yx and xd team ONE for AYDEN.

its been fun, i just really hope my class change appeal gets through. O GOD. PLEASE. and that i dont screw up on monday. going kathleens house later, so see ya.

AND i remember all my OGs names. edward tatleong yueyang kelly lorna jenny audrey steffi sara anushiya lijie dawn xinying jared ben. heh. ALDO shoes anyone?

[keep on running.]

2006-12-30T22:52:00.000+08:00

a quick update before i go to sleep.

china was BORING! please if you ever go DO NOT go to chengdu! haha but there WAS this funny part. this masseur was massaging my legs, and when she finished, alot of my leg hair was on the floor! ahahahahhahaa.

erm. prison break rocks. see? physics is cool.

[partay tomorrow. hope all turns out right.]

2006-12-18T03:44:00.001+08:00

hey so its been a while since ive been here... why?

cos i was in hokkaido, JAPAN!

tell you one thing, if i had to pick a country to live in, i'd definitely live there. the place is fantastic, japanese food tastes great! plus the weather is nice and chilly haha, and the SNOW! o gosh look at all the snow! oh oh and its like as if it was illegal to be ugly in japan. every female person has a cake of makeup on their face, but some, no alot, GENUINELY look REALLY good. damn. so we went abouts doing things, taking pictures and stuff. the usual tour package. at the rutsutsu hotel, i met saoori oda! a snowboard trainer who im going to see again next year for my snowboarding training! how COOL is that! apart from that the trip was more or less uneventful, but ill be there again, beCAUSE its SO fantastic.

annnd today, well last night, i watched jack and the beansprout! compliemtary tickets COURTESY of kathleen oei! thanks alot kittie! haha the show was brilliant! a bit overdone in singlish but definitely quite good by my standards. went to nerittas bdae party earlier in the day, getting my hand slammed in jackslap. hahaha.

yea... leaving for china in 6 hours.

annnnd i got to temasek! woohoo! im not happy about it! and i get my appeal results in 5 hours! hahaha

xD out!

[west tiger pair slope. ultimate snowboard brain buster.]

2006-12-07T22:59:00.000+08:00

so lifes been pretty much the same.

interesting enough.

chanced upon sherre and... AND... ARGH i forgot the name la. stupid me.

it was weird. haha

end of sightings for today.

[fight the pain.]

2006-12-03T23:28:00.000+08:00

this hereby certifies that:

PHUA HSUAN TE

is a loser.

WHY DIDNT I GET HER NUMBER? i dont know!! hahahaha so stupid right. what am i talking about? oh ho you dont know now do you? xD

[ alamak. go find her contact quick! japat!]

2006-11-28T23:11:00.000+08:00

so i just watched PoC2. kinda late i know. the story was a bit... weird. but whatever.

so life's been pretty dull.

yea.

i actually went to bugis street with grandma today.

she wanted to buy a belt.

at bugis street.

haha.

hahahahaha.

if you think about it, just imagine this scene. she was in one of those punky shops, browsing through the belt stand with this young sales staff standing next to her.

i laughed. im sure you would have too.

im just spacing my lines out cos there isnt really much to say.

im just dying of frigging boredom.

sigh.

all of a sudden my family doesnt care if i go to njc. because i figured i might not be able to make it with 8 points without CCA.

i dont care if i dont go vjc either. haha.

if i join njc, its tennis for me. have you heard? im seeded 48th in singapore. (117th was it?) LOL.

for getting my butt kicked by zuls cousin. for losing to rosenburger. for winning A game in M18 spex doubles.

bet you drama isnt half THAT exciting.

but if i DO go to vjc, (im actually caught between the two JCs) ill join drama lor. tennis aint that fun if you dont know anyone there.

well come to think about it, gims in drama in njc. join both? hahaha.

even rock doesnt have the feel anymore. im losing more life doing nothing than when i was studying.

omg. i need attention. haha.

i saw this coming. since the prelims ended. i saw it coming. the absolutely nothing-to-doness. the part where everyone does their own thing cos they live lightyears away. SIAN. next time im gonna go to a school next to my house. o wait. vjc. hahaha.

excuse me, i'm going to find a nice wall to bang my head against now.

[the pain was not enough for him to die, but enough for him to kill himself.]

2006-11-27T00:05:00.000+08:00

you have absolutely no F#%#^^# idea how seriously... "agitated" i am. to put things NICELY. seriously. no. seriously. you have no idea. i dont even know why i was so gracious about it. like i just let it SLIDE like that. just... i mean... i... didnt want to blow it up... like a kid. im over that you know?

as much as i hate to be.

well since we're talking about how dull life has utterly been, lets talk about another depressing thought. hold up, ive got one more after that, so unless youre trying to find someone who has a worse day than you, you might not want to be here.

imagine this. you meet someone, whose like, like, like, one of those rare compatible people you find in this world. compatible with you i mean. who... well, has a sense of humour like yours, and is very... lets just use the word extroverted here. i mean GOD! what the hell. it just seems so unfair that you meet such a person and then... poof. she goes away 3 days later. to come back only a year later. man... bye cindy. see you soon yea?

alright here comes lousy moment number 2. basically all my friends are busy with something. whoopdee doo. now what the hell am i supposed to do? people have church camps, jobs, relatives overseas, STUFF to DO. OH. MY. GOD. where does that leave me? sitting on my ass looking at this glowing screen. great. man. its been a lousy weekend. i gotta go. actually i dont, but i cant be bothered anymore.

[you have absolutely no idea.]

2006-11-25T21:13:00.000+08:00

20 november 2006
monday. o what did i do on monday? well i went out in the morning to kick ball at novena thereabouts. benedict phoon bernard wang shua rick dominic were there. i think i got a bit tanner after that haha. it was soo tiring, we played for about 2 hours in that little patch of fake grass. after that flew off to A club to change, and meet up at yukiyakis in marina square for lunch. lard yl yx kc alicia and ahroy were there. it was a real eye opener! the buffet lunch and all the jap food. especially the ice cream freezing part. yea. ate there for a few hours, then off to roys house! he has a steering wheel for his xbox! although i dont think its THAT great. kinda insensitive to the turning so i practically swerved everytime i rounded a corner. yea played some bridge after that and then took a fugging cab home that cost me 17 bucks.

21 november 2006
PAE at 830 am really was boring. in fact it was stifling. went to yls house after that. played for 5 whole hours before moving off to catch step up with kathleen. talked ALOT. boy and to think i was worried we'd have nothing to talk about. well whatever had dinner and went back.

22 november 2006
got up really tired. intended to stone the whole frigging day, but had to go to school to collect my dvds. called up nadia and went out with her after that for about 4 hours? yea. was realllllly tired. we nearly slept on the bus back home.

23 november 2006
wtf did i do today? erm... oh yea i went prawning with benedict and shua. kinda sad. we only caught two prawns in 2.5 hours. well I did. they just... sucked. haha. after that went to meet some long lost cousins of mine for dinner. absolutely boring.

24 november 2006
spent the morning with cindy. haha yea... kinda ditched justin and jonathan. we just talked and had fun. shes afraid of heights! xD then went out with her shopping at bugis. she didnt buy anything while i bought two things in 5 minutes. she asked me to go with her to KL, but i had something on. shes going back tomorrow! oh my god! and wont be back till a year later. sigh. well after that i went for the something on that i had. lets not talk about that shall we? =)

ah well. nostalgia sets in. emo songs. haha. today was spend-the-day-by-himself day. went prawning to try get my mind off things. caught 8 prawns. really cool stuff. now im like... going to sit by myself sommore.

[i dont want cindy to go! noo...]

2006-11-25T00:54:00.000+08:00

hey! its been a week since the Os have ended! ive been wanting to blog but was lazy la, at last i have the inspiration! i hope you all have been having as much fun as i have! well its been 7 days so let us take from the top shall we? you can read it bit by bit its ok, cos its kinda really long.

17 november 2006
elective history was absolutely horrible! practically wiped out the entire hall with its impossible SBQ questions and retarded SEQ questions. i think i put more crap on the paper then you'll ever find in the toilet. well, me and everyone else, so not so bad right! at most the bell curve shift all the way to the left and A1 is 50 marks xD well whatever, think positive everybody! and lets move on shall we? so after that went out to watch jamesbond007casinoroyale! haha with the singaporean 434 judokas. yeap. dam the show was really REALLY... flat la. ok the twist at the end was pretty good. but the torture scene. OH MANN. id rather he just chop it off man... but then itd be kinda funny. chop em off THEN get rescued. SHIT!!! haha so stupid. then after that just went walking to wheelock place... then heeren... then plaza singapura... FOR WHAT? because royston the splintercelldoubleagent addict needed to get the game and couldnt find it ANYWHERE! like... everywhere. it was kinda sad at comic collection. hahahaha. turned off the light and then turned it on after we walked away. well after that ditched em to meet nadia and co before chatting a bit and took the bus home!

18 november 2006
its really hard to remember what i did, because i didnt really do anything much. i practically played games all day. removed ALL my o level stuff from my room, which makes it REALLY empty now! haha time to import some A level textbooks. read a bit of the chem textbook too xD

19 november 2006
went to church as usual, but without dad, who went for some 10-day china trip. go figure. anyway then i continued reorganising my stuff. yeap... all my notes and textbooks! cant believe i read through ALL of that. sad to see it go, well no i was lying. then went to pick up rayshio from work. he sounded a bit different... perhaps a bit gayer. no seriously dude, you sounded different in the car. then! we SPLINTER CELLED. WE ROCK MAN. tripping alarms and killing people. and the TONOE NAGI manuever through the lasers. killed the guy along the way. that was totally awesome. yea played until our brains gave way and his mom came to bring him home.

yeap i know still got 5 more days but let me procrastinate a bit. write more later!

[trust. TRUST. i knew not to trust you with it.]

2006-11-13T21:33:00.000+08:00

im about to blog about my grandma. TAKE COVER EVERYONE.

ok so today i did really something absolutely horrid to my grandmother. words cannot express how MUCH i FEEL LIKE A STUPID BOY for doing what i did.

ok what did i do? i asked my grandma to get my jacket from home, come to parkway, and give it to me, and go home.

she took 1 hour to get here.

now. i dont care, you guys probably dont know what im talking about, but i felt so... stupid. i sent my grandma to get me my jacket. i mean... i thought... well... she hardly gets a chance to get out... and then... this is all my fault la. i suck. i mistreated my grandma. i am so hopeless. what if she fell? i tell you i saw the ambulance drive by parkway... sigh. i wouldve run all the way back home to see if she was alright. well. shes alright la. haha.

anyway onto a lighter note. went mugging today. 10 to...5? 6? sometime there started to stone liao. haha had some tuition teacher training by nadia today. if i ever wanted to take a job as a tuition teacher... id probably suck. hahaha chem and a maths... how to teach?? yeap...

went around searching for white choco chips today. 3 supermarkets. no WHITE chocolate chips. stupid... supermarkets. yeapp lifes been pretty much... mundane of sorts. did a really gritty a maths paper. raffles. stopped at the last question. sigh.

4 more friggin days. and then what?

[id rather be here, anywhere with you.]

2006-11-04T12:09:00.000+08:00

ah jeez dont you hate it when people remember you but you dont remember them? like the last time sok yin practically stared at me in lido and i forgot who the hell she was. today, aunt anne asked if this girl remembered who i was, and i totally didnt think she would nod because i had no idea who she was.

but she nodded.

do-oh. well apparently shes cheryl(4?) and yea... i forgot i knew her. whoops. so paieh man ah well. met an indon scholar marcia today. shes studyin in an international school and trying to get into sec 3 local school. she has the same taste as me. haha we love exams.

alamak exam begins on monday! so fast hor? gonna be over in 2 weeks. YEA. WOOHOO. COME ON. JUST A BIT MORE. hope yall like my blog skin. peace out.

[if you dont wanna say, im happy wondering.]

2006-11-02T23:08:00.000+08:00

today was really a day to blog about.

so it began with tuition at clementi. on the way there mom and dad fought again. dad was being arrogant and mom wouldnt let him win. it was really hard trying to sleep at the back. fighting is never good.

dropped dad off after breakfast. and mom did her usual confiding in me about dad again. =/ and i said id grow up to be just like you. well maybe we need to learn from other peoples mistakes. dad too blind to see when hes up there, feeling like hes all high and mighty. ah well. i hope everything turns out right.

after tuition, which was boring as hell. i took the 197 to... well. i didnt even know where the dam bus went to. hahhaha landed myself in kallang mrt luckily and went home. changed. went out to mug with sin. on the way to the toilet while mugging saw gissy and her friend! how coincidental. haha yea then she left with her friends and i went back to mugging. then nadia and dewei popped by. haha saw marc too! he hasnt changed since LLTC. wished me good luck for O levels too. wonder if he remembers my name like i remembered his. (which i didnt. so paiseh.)

yeap then went to watch the GRUDGE 2. HAHAHAHHA ok wait. i still have some leftover laughter from the show. AHHAHAHAHAA. watched it with gim and ray. man. IT WAS DAM FUNNY. I NEED TO LAUGH MY ASS OFF PLEASE. edison chen WAS SO FUNNY. HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAA. still got some laughter left dont mind. oh man. id recommend it to everyone to watch it. really awesome stuff.

i like today. it was really interesting. like something just switched on.

[i always thought it was hard. but this hard?]

2006-10-27T20:59:00.000+08:00

omg i have a superman balloon floating in my room. wait. its cos. its cos... its cos its MY BIRTHDAY TODAY! WOOHOO REJOICE AND CELEBRATE BECAUSE ITS PHUA HSUAN TE DAY.

i have a lot of people to thank for wishing me happy birthday and remembering it! ok so maybe SOME of you were reminded so i have to thank those who reminded people even more! to the rest who forgot, well its ok, you must be busy with studies or something and i probably forgot your birthday too.

well i didnt really take pictures so imma write this down to make sure i dont forget. it started at around 1140 when i left the house. was supposed to meet ray at 1215 but i thought hed be late so i decided to go a bit later. but whoops traffic was bad and i was 25 minutes late. my bad. ray passed me his gift which was the bag with a pink woman on it. o yea there was a card inside too haha. bought tickets DOA at 2.25 and went to wisma atria for lunch. suddenly saw benedict walking around and then he sat. then he left. got a phone call from sin. and he sang me a birthday song! which i recorded! im sorry but i was laughing my ass off and made ray record it hahaha. anyway then the whole gang came up and sang me a birthday song! in food republic! LOUDLY! o man! WOOOHOOOO. dont worry, i have very very thickskin. most people who stare dont think we're crazy, theyre just jealous their friends arent like that xD well yea then sin and sherrie got me this superman balloon which was retardedly big. wang and roy got me a cute panda! james matthias got me a chair and a card. shua got me an action figure which i think is really cool yes and benedict and derrick got me a pencil case! i think i couldnt find their names anywhere. then after that watched the show. came back. stoned. ate dinner at tung lok. came back. took picture with the cake and now im here.

ok now i have my whole day there, time to reflect. man i find it completely awesome that they planned this surprise for me. jason, rayshio and sherrie if im not wrong. (jason didnt know who ray was. so im sure sherrie had something to do with this. im not THAT stupid.) yea i love the green tea cake! (although it wasnt REALLY fantastic) i was extremely shocked and happy that i saw everyone singing my birthday song. im really touched guys, if i was a girl id cry in front of yall. but really, i really apprectiate it guys! thank you SO much. i really wasnt looking forward to my birthday at all. really. and yall didnt really have to get me anything! it wouldve been enough for yall just to be there and join me. too bad no space! aw man! i dont know i feel really bad that yall just came and left! so sorry! i was kinda stunned halfway through as to what to do anyway, wasnt really mentally prepared. but thank you all ok! i love ya guys loads!

i think its really nice that one of my prezzies was labelled xander. hahaha its gonna be my english name i think xD o btw do you know how excruciatingly embarrassing it is to carry a balloon the size of a small kid around singapore? it sapped all my mojo man! some group of girls(hot ones at that) looked at me and laughed. but its all good, because i dont care, im the one with the balloon. im the one with friends who remembered my birthday. you can go suck eggs. (or ovaries for that matter) yeap watched DOA i found it so corny i was laughing when the show started! oh yea and i got a sms from L3 wishing me happy birthday! maybe someone reminded him but i think its really cool that he remembered me. it makes me feel so bad that i forgot his. in fact it makes me feel really bad that i didnt get gifts and what nots for all my friends for their birthdays. and ray, the card is really touching too! im so sorry i didnt get you anything back then. my middies arent a good excuse x( yeap. id like to thank everyone again! really. from the bottom of my heart.

my birthday resolution is to be a better friend ok? ill care more! i promise. for being such a stuck up ass. its the least i can do.

[its my birthday har dee har har.]

2006-10-23T18:59:00.000+08:00

1. WWI

back in the 1900s the world got ticked off by germany because he couldnt help but take over the world. so they massed together, beat the shit out of germany, and voila~ they force him to sign the treaty of versailles. what losers. they demilitarise rhineland and itll look something like this.

on the far right its france with his ally britain. then theres the rhineland which separates em from germany and russia. upon closer inspection, the rhineland is a place where both sides are unable to fortify units, so as to keep it free from people entering etc etc.

britain was kinda looking into the camera. well we all know that it was georges clememceau, who wanted a harsh treaty, thats the dude sitting on the left up there. BUT. what about the KING? the KING of FRANCE? no. he refuses to give germany a hard treaty and he sits PROUDLY on his THRONE.

ok betcha all freaked out at that pic. well i know kane did! he was so shocked he climbed up the bloody table and looked kinda... stupid really.

yeap. so learn your lesson. dont go attacking other people unless ur ready to have a bunch o they friends coming over to whoop your ass. got it? good.

[no chairs or tables were hurt during this set up.]

2006-10-22T21:42:00.000+08:00

1. VIVOCITY
2. freaky leaf

alright in LIGHT of my new pretty clean blog! im here to do a photo blog! first up we have the new and exciting VIVOCITY at harbour front! woot! i tell you, if youre willing to sit through an omg-super-freaking long trip to VIVOCITY. then GO FORTH and MULTIPLY. ok just kidding. the place is full of shops and stuff to do! so if you do make it there! tell me about it ok?

cos i never made it.

so anyway starting off we were driving along and woohoo we're going to VIVOCITY! snapped some pics so have a look see!

yea i was in the car all the way through, it was really jammed but we drove along and when we finally got in we saw this...

if u look closely you can see cars stretching as far as the eye can see! holy shit! we immediately took a uturn man. no point sitting around on our ass just to see some uber shopping mall. i also took a closeup of the green guy on the left, but then im too lazy to blur his face. he actually put cones on the road cos the carpark was so dam full. haha he was staring at me! eek i smiled back but he glared. SO DRIVE SIS GO DRIVE!

well apart from that i have another special for you all! some day ago we were walking out of school when we stepped on a GIGANTIC leaf. i mean it was REALLY REALLY big. so either we had been studying too hard until weve never seen a leaf before, we took pictures of it! haha here i got one for yall..

ITS AS BIG AS HIS HEAD. DAM MAN. ITS AS BIG AS HIS HEAD. WOOHOO. ok so maybe weve been studying too hard.

p.s. all pictures were taken with a nokia 6233! my phone of choice!

p.s.s. and no, im not getting sponsored by them.

[photo blogging!]

2006-10-22T18:13:00.000+08:00

just wiped my blog for kicks.

1. assault at orchard mrt
2. jasons piggy friend
3. CUBE club party

well just recalling sometime ago when i was walking in orchard mrt. now you know that place is filled with people trying to ask you questions, pass you flyers or even sap your money. ok, so applying basic dodge-them-by-walking-behind-people technique, i made it all the way right outside the station after passing through the underpass. then, there was this girl (19ish.. girl what!) who approached me. shit, i thought, she asked me to spare her a minute but i said no, and walked off. THEN. she was quite insistent on asking whatever she wanted to ask/tell me. wait wait very fast one. Shit! NOOOooo i moved faster. WAIT WAIT WAiT. SHIt! i ran for it. haha if you think thats the worst part, she GRABBED my bag as i entered the gantry. OMFG SHIT. LET GO OF MEEEeeee. she let go la, after causing such a scene. phew. safe in the station. no... a few minutes later i see her in the station too! arrrrghhh. but she just smiled at me evilly and said hi. -_-;; ok whoever you are im SORRY i ran like an idiot... but really lor, i said no what. ka chao me for what.

oh oh i have also found out who sins piggy friend is! strangely enough i didnt want to find out. i mean its his business if he wants to keep her secret right. if these kind of things get out then itll be dam sian. you can already see the crap appearing at his tagboard. well 95 percent sure my source is, i think jinghan knew about it much earlier. ok... so i found out much later than him. gah. ok la i really wasnt interested in knowing but then! then! you... never tell me! now i must go find out from other people. haha now i know lor. somemore this things been lasting for quite a while liao. i had a vague idea about it but wasnt sure until someone told me. so exciting right? but then its not like i purposely when to ask who piggy was ok. he just told me suddenly while advertising for the cube club party.

moving on! 26th nov ray and a bunch o others are organising some party at the cube club. the hours are ridiculous (9pm - 3am) but im going anyway. its underage, so the strangers youll see are students from sji, catholic high, raffles girls, crescent girls, katong convent, toa payoh convent. yeap. tickets are going at 18 bucks a pop (expensive i KNOW.) and whoever does come to this stupid blog contact me for the tix.... or you could go straight to rays blog and tell him. haha whatever.

[fames whats shes wanting! shes just a disposable pop starr.]

2006-10-18T21:06:00.000+08:00

well havent been here for a long time, and alot has happened since then. really exciting stuff.

1. sec 4 paraliturgy
2. wedgie fest
3. the beginning of the end
4. weird mugging experience

well sec paraliturgy was really awesome, man it really sucks ass to leave sji, so many memories in the school. seeing ms goh tear in the eye as she put the badge on us. haha i broke down inside but aiya dont tear la, stronger a bit can? that didnt stop jian hao from crying, lex, andrew etc etc. i wanted to cry la, it was really dam sad. we've done so much in this school. so much joy, sadness, pain, relief etc etc. all the friends ive made, all the things we've done together, all the events ive joined in sji. like my track and field medal. dam man thats one of the craziest stories ill ever tell, besides the one about locking damien in the small room. hahar sigh. really lor. sec 4 paraliturgy really took a big chunk out of me. watching everyone just struggle to keep it in. haha. theres alot ill write about my experience in sji, and if u go to any other sec4s blog, im sure theyll say the same. so ill save it, perhaps most of it has already been written in my blog, its been here for 3 years anyway. sec 1 stuff... haha well. it was really fun. i can still remember orientation... who i went with... the carwash... yeap.

and for the last 4 days in school, alot of male bonding has happened. sad to say that it only happened at the last 4 days of school, after spending 500+ days knowing each other. well better late than never i suppose. how do we bond? well if youve been cheking out my classmates blogs (not that youll know who they are anyway.) weve been doing some intense serious raping in class. WOOHOO. it gets you high and i think weve grown closer as a class doing so. ok i know its not the BEST way to bond, but roll with the punches alright? haha exclusive videos are on youtube! watch me and sin get raped together! haha i even had time to adjust my tie -_= well yeap its REALLY fun and we cant do it anymore in JC. raped peeps even with ms goh in class. after prayer etc etc. RAPED EM ALL. scholars NOT excused. raped lex too! YOUTUBE! keywords: sji 434

well 3 years ago i wouldve done anything NOT to go to school. now im coming back even when its over. today was marking day and me and a bunch o others were in school mugging! talking with the gohs in the office haha. ms and mrs goh. yeap was kinda neat we actually had some mini picnic in class with all the food. was in school from 9-5 with 2 hour chem at 12pm and 1 hour lunch break playing basket ball and busting my little finger! its all black now and it hurts like hell. but it was fun mugging la with some peeps coming back to mug together. mm hmm more to come tomorrow! wootz

oh yea and just recently went out mugging with nadia at macdonalds. and it couldnt get ANY weirder. first there was this lunatic woman who sat with random people. then... AHHAHAHAHAHAHAHha she starts laughing HYSTERICALLY. omg. the girl next to us was probably freaking out. there was another crazy woman sitting with random people. luckily naddy blocked the chair. dam. cant imagine if BOTH the crazy women sat across me. of course there already one sitting across me so was kinda used to is xD. then there was this korean kid walking up and down the bench and he was so cute! that i squished him. not like a bug kinda squish more like a michael jackson kinda squish. HAHHA just kidding cute kid though. then there these UNi peeps sitting behind us. some dude was sitting on the baby chair and then there was this convo.

"MAN MY NIPPLES HURT MUST GO AND REVENGE THAT #%(_% SIA"

like WTF? HAHAHa even at uni still doing that. gross lor. haha yeap. that shud about wrap up what ive been up to, besides the mugging and all. mm hmm so catch ya all soon! just a little bit more to the Os!

[sacrifice. since you cant go to heaven why not give others a chance?]

2006-10-08T00:08:00.000+08:00

so if you're singaporean or have been in singaporean lately, you WOULD have noticed the nice thick fluffy haze that has coated our lovely little island. its gone way above healthy levels and now they have a nice PSI meter on our televison! cool huh? well not if you live here, breathings a bitch here, and things look so greyed out.

now anyway i was thinking, or can you just imagine this. some dude wants to committ suicide. he goes to the top floor, ready to jump. right before he dies, he decided to take a few last breaths. bad move. so he takes a few whiffs and bam, all the hazy particles enter his lungs and hes dead. without jumping off. maybe its a good thing, it doesnt leave a mess. hmm.

well today it was one of those gatherings again! the childhood gatherings which i will never forget. i'll never forget them, despite how far we've grown apart as we age. jingyan wasnt there cos it was his first day of NS. ivan wasnt there cos uncle richard thought we just invited them. christines in australia. but. we got peiyi and peishi, who i quite rightly dont remember. they used to visit us in taiking, so says mum. but back in taiking i was a puny little thang so how am i supposed to remember them? peiyi or peishi looks like the woman from alias with her dyed hair. kinky. houxu and yikai were there, which was actuallly because of him anyway. yikai served us at black angus and i suggested that dad treat him back cos he paid for a better part of our meal.

haha yea. nick and audrey, look the same sound the same. ^^ reminds me of my childhood. whee. wrecking havoc in my house. making home videos.

[PSI. PLEASE SUCK....... IVAN.]

2006-10-05T18:34:00.000+08:00

lifes been uber dull. the most interesting point of my day is that theres haze. and... yea... work piles up but im too lazy to do it and people want to mug so far away at bedok i cant be bothered to go so im just lazing about in my room all day. sigh.

so much maths to do. so much chem to do. so much geog to do. so much. to do.

zzz.

boring la.

4 more weeks to lots of pain.

6 more weeks to lots of nothing to do.

back to work. i suppose.

[dam sian la.]

2006-10-03T14:17:00.000+08:00

finalization results. school decided to mod everything EXCEPT english. sheesh.

ENGLISH - 69 B3
CHINESE - 65 B3
E MATHS - 92 A1
A MATHS - 85 A1
CHEMISTRY - 86 A1
PHYSICS - 78 A1
BIOLOGY - 80 A1
E. HISTORY - 81 A1
GEOGRAPHY - 81 A1

MSG - 1.44
PERCENTAGE - 79.6%
CLASS POSITION - 1/34
ATTENDANCE - 100%

I AM A NERD. SHOOT ME.

[sigh. back to mugging again. 6 weeks and its all over.]

2006-10-02T14:10:00.000+08:00

sian. today prelim results. sian.

e maths - A1 92
a maths - A1 85
chemistry - A1 83
physics - A1 78
biology - A1 80
social studies - A1 81
geography - A1 81
ENGLISH - B3 69

aggregate? 8. dam it la. its dam unfair la. other people a maths B4 physics B3 still get 6 pointer. kao.

[going to mug english now. laterz]

2006-10-01T17:53:00.000+08:00

i dont undertstand something.

you know those yeo's packet drinks? chrysanthenum, soya bean, GREEN TEA? yea well you see, they now have this gimmick which is used to sell more of their packets.

its the 20% extra gimmick. they give you 20% extra drink by making the packet bigger. but now here the problem lies.

those pricks never gave 20% extra for the straw. so. wtf? you have to suck extra hard to get that extra 20% out.

also! they have the Not So Sweet stamp on the base of the packet. is that a new gimmick? you mean now youre gonna sell SO Sweet packets next to Not So Sweet packets? issit for the more health conscious? do they actually sell more? maybe you should put Not So Sour. or Not So Salty. see where thatll get you.

anyway, im off to finish my extra 20%. with a spoon.

[prelim results tomorrow! please bring cameras to take the mass suicide at the pretzel! HAHA.]

2006-09-30T15:00:00.000+08:00

i have decided to no longer post angsty, teenagy, bitchy things here anymore. all that immature shit will be dumped somewhere else. go find it if you can.

till then, its time to graduation day! excites!

[monday is the day.]

2006-09-29T21:10:00.000+08:00

i have created the ultimate sin. super chocolate brownies topped with marshmallow and chocolate chips. its so sinful i nearly gave myself a sore throat. status report! here. the book said it was supposed to look like this.

alright so i couldnt find the tiny marshmallows. alright so i dont have a 9 inch pen-PAN i mean. ahhem. so i improvised. snipped the big marshies into smaller marshies. and spread it a little bit thinner then i should have. end result? voila~

god. it tastes a million times better than it looks. take my word for it. you. want. to. eat. this. but dont even bother. i bolted my door shut and have a shotgun by my bed. come on. try me.

[prepping for the big prelim results on monday. please give me a A2 for english.]

2006-09-29T14:07:00.000+08:00

gotta love that picture. so anyway this is in hopes that i DO of course make it to vjc, ill consider TSD as a subject. they say its difficult, and the only way to score well is to have a passion for the subject. alright. i seem to have fit that part. subject combo will have to be chem maths econs and tsd, to my dismay, i wonder if i could do bio too... well too much at hand. i was thinking of joining tennis and drama as CCAs too. haha big dreams, ambitious, i know. i suppose itll change over time, what with the open house coming and all.

if i dont make it to vjc, then njc will be next.

[graduating soon.]

2006-09-28T21:40:00.000+08:00

i was looking for a word to describe my emotion today. couldnt really find it. till now. the word, is...

enraged.

am i untrustworthy? do i have a face of a liar? am i that dishonest? do i use people for ulterior motives? do i treat people nice just for what i want of them?

no. but i guess you dont feel that way. theres nothing i can do that will change that, i know. it just hurts me so that you accuse me so, of all people.

you.

[the way you make me look at you, with all the seemingly simple things you said.]

2006-09-28T15:41:00.000+08:00

2006-09-28T00:03:00.000+08:00

somehow i think eunice is going to love this post.

WELL ANYWAY! HELLO everybody! we are in the middle of week 3 and i must say i have been busying myself lately with...

cookies.

so in light of my cookie bible i purchased not-too-long ago. i have attempted some of the dishes, though the results seem pretty far from their intended target. tasty, nevertheless. lets have a look shall we?

first up, we have the snowy delights! and what was to look like this...

turned out to look like this...

no worries, they were tasty and everyone finished them. but i was unsatisfied, convinced i had done a lousy job, so i tried to make double chocolate chip cookies! which were suppose to look like...

turned out to look like this...

yes i know i couldnt find white chocolate chips... so i used m&ms! gave them much more colour anyway.

so today, i tried to take it one step further, trying to make these yummalicious snow-on-mountain cookies that were made to look like this...

it was difficult you know, making the vanilla glaze that i had to spread on top. once again i couldnt find vanilla chips so i used white chocolate instead, to the same effect. end result? presenting...

ah well. i tried. good to say that no one has had stomach aches SO FAR. except me but i always have stomach problems. oh well, if you want to eat it, come find me! at the steps in the morning or in class during recess.

(disclaimer: its actually cos im too sick to eat all of them anyway, theyre all too sweet.)

well thats it! see la, sji no funfair, cannot bake to sell. stupid la. hope jc got chance! haha but then ill get owned by girls x( alright its late imma off now! later dayz

[cookie cookie cookie!]

2006-09-27T18:55:00.001+08:00

so i calculated today in class, after punching in a few numbers into jasons calculator...

17.5+23.2= 40.7

70-40.7= 29.3

29.3/40 X 60 = 44.

44. thats 22 a piece per essay. anything lower than that its a B3. which is REALLY gonna suck. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE. of all times for my essay to go below 22, let it not be now. and. if i could get 27 for both of them, why not eh? hahahahaa... fat hope, like wishing for sunlight at 12mn. its only possible in certain places.

well yea thats about it. the rest of my subs i dont care anymore. physics already went down the toilet. please hold my english. let it pull through. COME ON DAMMIT.

work has started. summary, physics and e maths. easy stuff. gonna try and bake snow on a mountain later. x) whats that? well quite rightly im not too sure either.

[to conceal rather to reveal, so is the case of many truths.]

2006-09-27T18:55:00.000+08:00

2006-09-26T21:52:00.000+08:00

you know, i thought when you mastered the solo of a song, the rest of the song would be a breeze.

nooo....

even without tuning my guitar down a step, the solo of say it aint so by the weezers sounds pretty ok, but the intro riff sounds so weird when i do it. dammit. and i really wanted to play that song. nevermind. i shall bring it a step down eventually. tomorrow.

yea seems like lim chuans very controlled by girls. whatever songs they want him to play, he'll do it. why? because then he'll just tell me what to learn and i do it cos i love music anyway. while he gets away with impressing chics with his bass.

sheesh. some people i bear with.

[cookies for EVERYONE tomorrow!]

2006-09-26T19:58:00.000+08:00

hey everyone. as you might not know i got my english paper 2 back and sadly i hit 27 out of a possible 50. words could not describe how crushed i felt. absolutely crushed.

suffering from depression as of the moment i saw the papers, i decided to distress and i baked cookies. hahaha.

snowy delights and double chocolate chip cookies. pcitures will be uploaded soon, because i intend to make more. not much has happened, physics really took a blow today too. i could see it in his face. its just been such a sad week.

sigh.

i really hate letting people down. i really cannot take it. all the blame i will take, for nothing can replace the look of sadness and shock on my english teachers face. its all my fault. please forgive me. i really didnt want it to be like this. and i think its quite amusing that you think i have relationship problems. considering the fact that i never had one. i know youre concerned, but im concerned many times more.

today i panicked when i read the practise comprehension in class. it was so difficult, and ms. goh constantly checked my first question, which i could not get right. it was a painful experience to relive, something i only tasted during my primary school years learning chinese. now, my english is in shambles and so is everything else.

at least the double chocolate chip cookies came out right. thats about the only thing thats been right so far...

[C5 for english. like ripping my guts out of my body and crushing my heart.]

2006-09-25T20:33:00.000+08:00

you know, ive always wondered... why do people give up when things go wrong? its such a paradox to me, because i always thought that it is when things go wrong that you should dig yourself in and fight it out, not give up and submit. i mean, take the blow, shrug it off and get right back to blasting your foe to oblivion.

im not just referring to computer games. so many times in my life ive seen people give up when they encounter difficulty, but isnt that what life is all about? facing your enemies and conquering your fears. when you meet failure, do you lay down your weapons and give up? an obstacle in your way and find another route? a shadow in an alley and flee?

no. you hold your ground and fight.

be it tennis matches where youre 7-4 down in a 9 game match. grit your teeth and slam the shit out of that furry ball.

be it when your proposal for an event isnt accepted. rewrite and lookover it.

be it when your cookies dont turn out right the first time, shove the next batch in the oven.

be it when youre down and out with an enemy 10 times larger than you, clench your fist and sock him in the face.

i mean, of all the times to give up, you give up when things go wrong? where the hell is the sense in that? you give up when youve achieved your goal, where you can turn off your mind on the matter. not when your friends are down and out.

it is exactly when things go wrong that you need to stand firm. i dont understand, i cannot even begin to comprehend why people pull out when they see a difficult path ahead. isnt it all the better? you stand together and pull through. ride the storm, hand in hand, because no man can sail alone, and we need all hands on deck. a thunderstorm approaches and your captain needs you on board. your contribution can save your entire crew, because you could be the one man holding the mast steady while the rest pull the sails down.

you make every single possible difference in everybody around you, because you have the power to do so.

how you choose to wield this power, is completely up to you.

failure is not the end of it all. it is not the time to throw the towel. NO i say. failure only tells me that i am not trying hard enough. it tells me that the enemy has outdone me. it tells me that the way im doing things isnt right. it tells me that i have to call for aid. and to call for aid is to admit that you do not know how to solve the problem. admitting that you do not know is the first step to learning. though some men pride themselves too much to admit their mistakes.

this has brought about the downfall of many great leaders in the time, and will continue to do so in the future. because we do not wish to embrace the failure. it is a sign of weakness that we do not wish to portray to those around us. yet it is this inability to recognise that brings about that downfall. because covering cracks with cement will only lead to the cracks widening underneath. unseen by all until it is too late.

so. do not give up when the battle goes awry. battle and bruised regardless. stand strong with your friends and fight till the end. because somethings are really worth fighting for. somethings. are really worth dying for.

[yes. the words of a brokenhearted mugger.]

2006-09-24T22:29:00.000+08:00

hey everyone! i fixed my guitar stand! woohoo!

ray came over to hit some balls! with my new grip my blisters took longer to appear which is a good thing. i LOVE my shots. down the line forehand aggro shot. now if only i wasnt so unfit i could own everything haha. my smashes suck though. missed a bounced overhead that bounced BEFORE the NET. sigh. well other than my smashing AND my serving, i think everything else is like it was, if not better x) i just need to get a bit more fit. buff. hot. haha.

now i have blisters on my right hand and calluses on my left fingers. dam i love my amp. it totally rocks the world. no feedback from my dist. pedal. what more could i ask for? my whammy bar! hahaha not sure how to incoporate it into my licks but ill figure it out. eventually.

uh huh. and then. DOOM. OH YES. I MADE IT PAST HELL. HAHAH. ray was navigator and he would calmly point out all the demons to shoot while i freak out like an electrified chicken. just cos he isnt the shooter. thinks its SOO easy. haha. 2 hp demon take down! YEA.

rest of the day spent dungeon sieging. oh yea i read this poem thingy from a friend. was quite beautiful in a sad way. amazed i am by it.

anything else? oh yea my rooms a total mess and i think that SUCKS. gonna pack it tomorrow and bake the snowy delights or whatever the honk theyre called. haha the COOKIE BIBLE is in my hand.

[baby. BABY! AHHH BABY!!!! BANG BANG BANG.]

2006-09-23T23:56:00.000+08:00

hey everyone todays been a really long day with my spending most of the time in the car tranversing from one point to another.

first off i have my glasses at last. dam been walking around without those things since july. now pretty girls look prettier and ugly girls... well they were ugly to begin with.

then i dumped off my stuff at the esplanade, incurring a stupid fine for not returning my dvd. stupid IMFers. IM a Fu***** har har har.

moving on to funan where we bought new speakers. and what SPEAKERS. altec lansing. two satellites the size of your calves and a woofer as big as your chest! sadly i have to keep it at level 2/5 cos its so strong itll blow the house down.

then went to davies where this real nice guy pointed out this 199 amp for my guit. played a bit with it with my crappy skills and said ok. grabbed a whammy bar on the way out cos i lost the one that came with my guit.

came home, spent a good hour or so fixing everything up and voila. its like MAGICK. my room has godlike audio that surpasses my wildest dreams! my distortion pedal doesnt give the stupid feedback with my uber amp and my woofer WOOFS baby.

with the ignition CD from total guitarist i actually can practise my solos with all the different keys without waiting to join a band. which totally rocks! although im kinda uncreative with it cos well... i suck. just some high notes and the occasional whammy. i used the Blink182, MCR and Falloutboy backings the most, cos im familiar with their music. lost prophets are kinda good too, more melodic. but its REAL fun playing! MAN i love my sound.

ive got a week left before my prelims results! that whole period will be actual slacking and if anyones free to go out with me ill go out with ya! haha cant believe arvinds got a date to go places with. sheesh. maybe ill bring my guitar out on a date. need to change her strings anyway.

yeap. one week of great nothingness to do. bought a cookie bible (winks). i shall be experimenting in the kitchen if you need me. cookie baking skills increase tenfold! ROCK ON. IM A COOKIE BAKING ROCKER WITH ZERO BALL SENSE AND READ BOOKS FOR PLEASURE.

what am i talking about? only i will know.

[bake. guitar. tennis. mugger.]

2006-09-19T20:20:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey everyone! its 2 days to the end of the prelims. im kinda sad its gonna be over. it was quite fun x)

ANYWAY. today heng yang treated me to some wedges which i think was really... nice...? thanks alot i suppose. woo its gonna be over! can only mean one thing. PARTYY.

will anycome? if you are eligible for the following let me know!
1. PSF PARTY
2. 103-203 PARTY
3. 334-434 PARTY
4. MY BIRTHDAY PARTY (earlier la! but i MUST HAVE THIS ONE.)(anyone who knows me can come!! with a present of course!)
5. EMDD PARTY

man. my birthday party takes top priority. i REALLY REALLY want ONE. ERRUUGHHHHH. OCTOBER 27. ill hold it on the 21st oct. if you are willing. let me know and ill do the rest!!

wheeeeeeeeeeee im gonna graduate soon!! INTO VJC I GO. second choice NJC and third choice CJC and the 4/5/6th choice RJC AHHAHAHAHAHA.

[biology. no sweat. no blood. no menstruation.]

2006-09-12T21:26:00.000+08:00

Level 1
() smoked a cigarette
( ) smoked a cigar
( ) done weed
() kissed a member of the same sex
(x) drank alcohol
SO FAR: 1

Level 2
( ) been in love
( ) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
( ) been fired
(x) been in a fist fight
SO FAR: 3

Level 3
( ) snuck out of a parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have themback
( ) been arrested
( ) made out with a stranger
( ) gone out on a blind date
SO FAR: 4

Level 4
(x) had a crush on an older person
() skipped school
() slept with a co-worker
() seen someone/something die
SO FAR: 5

Level 5
(x) had/have a crush on one of your FRIENDSTERfriends
(x) been to Paris
(x)been to Spain
(x) been on a plane
( )thrown out for drinking
SO FAR: 9

Level 6
(x) eaten Sushi
( ) been snowboarding
( ) met someone BECAUSE of myspace
() been mosh pitting
SO FAR: 10

Level 7
( ) been in an abusive relationship
(x) taken pain killers
( ) love/like someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(x)made a snow angel
SO FAR: 12

Level 8
( )had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
() played dress up
SO FAR: 15

Level 9
() jumped into a pile of leaves
(x) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school
SO FAR: 19

Level 10
() used a fake/someone else's ID
(x) watched the sun set
() felt an earthquake
( ) killed a snake
SO FAR: 20

Level 11
(x) been tickled
(x) vandalized something
( ) robbed someone
(x) been misunderstood
(x) pet a reindeer
SO FAR: 24

Level 12
() won a contest
()been suspended from school
()had detention
(x)been in a car/motorcycle accident
SO FAR: 25

Level 13
() had/have braces
() eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x)had deja vu
(x)danced in the moonlight
SO FAR: 27

Level 14
(x) hated the way you look
() witnessed a crime
(x) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
(x) been obsessed with post-it notes
SO FAR: 31

Level 15
(x) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
(x) been to the opposite side of the world
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like you were dying
SO FAR: 36

Level 16
(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
(x) recently coloured with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(x) sang karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins
SO FAR: 41

Level 17
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
() made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
( ) kissed in the rain
SO FAR: 43

Level 18
(x) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
( )watched the sun set with someone you care/cared about
(x) blown bubbles
( ) made a bonfire on the beach
SO FAR: 45

Level 19
(x) crashed a party
( ) traveled more than 5 days in a car full of people(x) gone roller skating/ blading
(x) had a wish come true
( ) humped a monkey
SO FAR: 47

Level 20
() worn pearls
() jumped off a bridge
(x) screamed "penis" at a football game.
( ) swimming with dolphins
SO FAR: 48

Level 21
(x) got your tongue stuck to a pole/freezer/ice cube
( ) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sex clothes
() sat on a roof top
SO FAR: 50

Level 22
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
(x) done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 3 hours
(x) stayed up all night
SO FAR: 54

Level 23
(x) picked and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
(x) had/been in a tree house
() aren't scared to watch scary movies alone
SO FAR: 57

Level 25
( ) believe/believed in ghosts
( ) have/had more then 30 pairs of shoes(in a lifetime)
( ) gone streaking
( ) been in jail
SO FAR: 57

bored. heh.

2006-09-12T20:36:00.000+08:00

yo everybody im here to clock in some time on my blog so im hre. as usual. geography tomorrow! a real pain it is to memorise everything dam thing. extreme headache. tomrrow our crapping skills shall be tested. he who craps best. wins.

chemistry today. was.

[8 more days and its all over.]

2006-09-11T21:02:00.000+08:00

hey everyone! today was a really shitty day! and ive been dragging my ass all day hoping the whole frigging day would end. and it did. so im here to tell you, everything. that belongs in the toilet bowl.

1. emaths sucked! BIG EFFING TIME. if you know whats a decagon is, please tell me. my god. and wrong formulas being used. wrongly read... argh...

2. ok. breathe. ss will be better. WOAH. MERGER SEP! WOOHOO. but. BUT. i infered wrongly. somehow a rock became a chicken. you can guess how it went on...

3. fine. i screwed up. so i go tot he canteen. eat my dam lunch and shout vulgarities! FU#*()UT YOU_#$DJF i SCREWED UP #EKT. time to return the plate. stood up. turn around. who do i SEE? THE TEACHERS TABLE RIGHT BEHIND ME. WITH ALL THE TEACHERS HAVING LUNCH! YES. just what i needed. i screwed my exams ok? give me a break.

4. alright. my mp3 battery dies on me cos i forgot to charge it. (#%j

5. then, my EZ link card goes out. greaaat.

6. my rash is acting up again. and i have a cut on my lip.

7. someone wanted me to help on a dilemma. i gave my number. but i get no reply. did i type the effing wrong number?! you know... not the way things wouldve gone.

well. thats it. what a stupid way to start, spend and end the day. well chemistry tomorrow! something to look for i hope. omg. save me.

[i just need this to end. 10 days. keep that head up.]

2006-09-10T21:04:00.000+08:00

hey this is one of the more or less complete pieces of my blog! put in 4 hours of hard work sifting through my pictures and piecing it together and SMUDGING the dam edges.

then i had to go pull my hair out working on the effin template (borrowed from rays blog) if u cant see the SLIGHT similarity besides the fact that im all over the dam blog.

anyway. hope u enjoy it! sorry if ur pic aint there! im gonna make a better one after the prelims! ahahaha lauughs.

[cos sometimes tomorrow never comes.]

2006-09-07T20:44:00.000+08:00

paper theory.

it has a certain ring to it dont it? for the uninformed (and i probaby wouldnt have told you anyway) lim chuan asked me to join his supposed "BAND". so he'll be the bassist right... uh huh... when he doesnt know how to play the bass. great. so who else did he get? some 14 year old keyboardist and her friend who wants to LEARN how to play the guitar and LC wants me to TEACH her. yeaa. so much for the band.

well. if i ever do form a BAND in the future (hopefully in JC i can find some people who can actually PLAY.) i think paper theory would be a nice name. wont it? paper theory... ok so maybe it aint that great but i dont really like what LCs got for his "BAND".

atania.

pronounced AeiTaneea. well... i was thinking of something more funky you know but i suppose he wanting to play GOTHIC ROCK. (-_-) hed need some darker kind of name. so much for the name "pink underwear" well i wasnt really thinking about that as a band name but you know... something funky and crazy. hes trying to rope in harold too. and he got some dominic guy wholl come for the "occasional" jamming and some female drummer wholl be joining till jan. great.

well after dishing out all the shit at him, i guess you have to applaude his effort to try and piece it all together.

if you however, are reading this, and are bandless (you subject, hence the are) please do tell me! id rather we go find some other members who can PLAY a fricking guitar and search for a drummer and a bassist. come on, rhcp can make it with a lead, bassist, drummer and a vocalist. we dont need too much either.

and we'll call ourselves paper theory! or, whatever we think of la. i listen to alternative rock. the killers, velvet revolvers, green day, third eye blind, orson(cos of eunice) OK GO(go listen) snow patrol (run and chasing cars) fall out boy, and many more. and of course red hot chili peppers.

so if you listen to these kinda songs, youre my kinda playa. form a band and play a tune! currently workin on mr. brightside.(its a bitch on the wrist and fingers.) chasing cars is alright, then its yellow by coldplay, wherever you will go and here without you. yeap.

haha. come on if ure up for it im up for it.

alright puttin that aside. been quite a crazy few weeks. mugging and all that shit. guitar teacher told me to quit and teach myself. (it was in a good sense) he said i could just go and borrow a vid, read a book, and learn the guitar! (YES. i know ALOT of you do that. i JUST found out. OK?!)

and. the reason for the name paper theory comes from the physical training weve been doing (PT. geddit? we're doing PT.) and we actually wrote the list on a piece of tissue paper. yea. and then. PT. paper. PT. paper theory. shuddap.

well that should be about the most exciting things happening right now.

jonathan leong, being the josephian that he is, is coming to sji tomorrow (IDONTKNOWWHY) so if you want to get his autograph(or TOUCH HIM *GRINS*) sji. tomorrow. :/ word has it from lard that chics are goinn! so guys who are not interested in him. just go la. help the poor guy out.

alright too much for today! gotta go now! later dayz.

[i need a drummer, one more guitarist and bassist.]

2006-09-04T23:30:00.000+08:00

id blog about something fun and exciting but guess what? the most fun and exciting thing ive done in the past few eons is find out how to solve an e maths question.

i feel like the sim in the sims whose fun and social are all red.

hee hoo haa haa.

someone just poke me.

someone just ask me to forget studying and go out.

till late.

and then we can wait for the bus at 11pm together.

give up and walk home.

lol.

wth.

boredom reigns supreme.

[3rd post in ten minutes]

2006-09-04T23:25:00.000+08:00

bored shitless. what to blog about... lets see... uh... dunno.

i wanna play tennis but i got a blister.

i wanna go out but i have to study.

i wanna play my guitar but i suck at it.

i wanna hang with people who have fun but im too goodie-two-shoes. WTF?

i wanna do all the things my parents told me not to do.

i wanna. but i aint. im just got shut up now.

[ARRGHH. NEED. TO. PURGE. chest pains. difficulty breathing.]

2006-09-04T22:33:00.000+08:00

you know the feeling when youre left out of something? when people dont mind you being there but dont really want you there?

... .... .... . ... .. .... ... . ....

... ponders.

why... . ... ..... like this... ... .... cant it... like.... that?

... .... ..no way.... ... cant... ..... just not meant to be.. ..

..... ..sigh.. ... ergh... ..arggh.... its been so long... ...

.zzz. .. ..why do i even think about it.... ...

because... you.... want... it... to happen....

...when... it... cant.... ever.... ever.....

.... .... get out of my head.. please..... stop it....

.. ... .. .. . leave me alone... .. .... .... .

.. you dont care..

you do?.....

... .. .... liar.

ARGHHHHH. AAAAAAAAAARRRRGGGGHHHH.

...

..

.

steves dead. very unrelated topic but i always wanted to meet steve irwin. now ill never get the chance.

[the only thing harder than holding on... is letting go...]

2006-08-26T01:41:00.000+08:00

let me recall a certain loser moment...

so me and jason took the 153 across the road to go to toa payoh aye, to take the 966er to parkway for a bit of mugging.

we got off and there are two IJ girls sitting at the stop. without my contacts on, there wasnt any real point in looking at them - so i didnt.

yeap so we stood at the back of the stop. waited. a good 15 minutes later (bloody bus still wasnt here yet) some bus came, and the two girls got up and boarded.

while boarding however... i got a closer look at the girl... and hey... wait a minute *squints* isnt that...

chloe?

shit?!

wtf!?

i just walked past her and stood there for 15 minutes. daoing her. good job there xd. very man. haha well i kinda got her attention when she was ON the bus. and we waved to each other. sheesh.

[i need glasses. a fourth pair.]

2006-08-20T00:45:00.000+08:00

you know when youve been with the phua family long enough (i currently have been with it for 15+ years) you kinda realise that all of us have similar traits. no. im not talking about the fact that we pronounce WATCH as WATTch.

it is about our signature ok.

you see, dad, mum, sissy and me. we all over use ok. the word ok has been used in our vocabulary for almost anything.

we use "its ok" to say:
1. its fine.
2. i really cannot stand it.
3. i really like it!
4. i dont think you should have done that
5. its not as good as it looks
6. dont bother
7. im not going
8. no thank you
9. im full
10. im not ok (YES. when we are ok we are not ok! we are weird people.)

you see!? there are many more examples but i cant really think of anymore right now. jeez. we all use the word ok for eVERYThingg. haha. so the next time i say im ok... think twice... or ten times. it could mean anything! xD

well then theres another point i just wanna put across. you know great people. not albert einstein. not thomas edison. not those great people. the great people im talking about are those who do great things and yet live their lives quite similarly to yours.

quote: "great people should be respected, not envied." -xD (hey i dont see anyone else saying that)

see, these people are the heros of our age. they show us that we can do many great things if we set our minds to it. because they are just like us, if you cut them, they will bleed, they are human, made of the same carbon content as you. they just have a better control over their own lives better than we do.

so we shouldnt spite them, or be jealous. wake up people. great people deserve respect, because they set the way for us to follow. so let us strive to be like them. end post.

[i wish i couldve lived a better life. more meaningful. but im totally ok with mine right now xD]

2006-08-18T20:33:00.000+08:00

As the day turns, we all put our pens down after a long day of slaving over books and papers... we all sit back and realise all the temptations that face us.

these temptations come to us in many ways, be it the temptation to just vent your anger at someone, the temptation to just play computer games all day, or even the temptation to just quit and give up.

sometimes these temptations seem far away, sometimes these these temptations are knocking at our door. what determines this distance are the many factors that influence our life. now like a sphere, there are many tangents to the surface, there is also a plethora of conditions that affect how we face temptations.

these factors can be split into two aspects: mental and physical.

although the human mentality is by far more significant than the human physique, the latter is just as important. now, the human mind can reach infinite dimensions, it is capable of working at the speed of an electrical impulse, jumping from one node to the other.

our mind controls our feelings, emotions and thoughts. these three things are what we revolve around in our daily lives. when we are sad and depressed, temptations seem to emit strong waves which hit us repeatedly. it is like this protective barrier that is deactivated when your mental is weakened. when you are not in the right state of mind, you become vulnerable to the many temptations we face everyday. yet, when our minds are filled with happy thoughts, when we are satisfied with our lives, temptations are more or less insignificant to us. they bounce off us like specks of dust.

these temptations are also exacerbated when our health is undermined. when you are sick and in pain, it is hard to differentiate what is right and what is easy. it seems so much easier to take a syringe and inject yourself with drugs when you feel sick. you do it because you want the pain to go away. you want to escape from all this. when you first learn you suffer from cancer, you will definitely think of killing yourself. the thought of suicide will cross every single person's mind.

this is human nature. it is only human to try and find the easy way out. although we prefer flight over fight, not all of us choose that path. yet we do so because sometimes if you keep running from things, they will eventually catch up with you. although we do not always see it, standing your ground and riding the wave out will allow you to free yourself from guilt.

these temptations riddle us constantly, but there are ways to reduce the effects. a good foundation of friends is important. they help to bear the burdens of our day, which in turn strengthens our mentality. family is just as essential, they are the very core that holds us together. basically, we have to depend on each other, we live interdependently with one another, and i am grateful to have people who care about me. some dont show it as much as others, but i know you do.

shout out time?
donovan: for lending me his essay
jason: who willingly let me see his essays
shawn: for being the only other person on the bachelor table at AP xD
dipan: for trying to explain the dam exponential integration question
weian: for being my good scholar friend
jasonS: for being a great friend to mug with
kane: for being a great pal since primary 3
ms. lee: for being the best history teacher ive seen
ms. goh: for believing in after i let you down... twice

haha. thanks for caring. there are many people who i have not mentioned, nor will i do so, because they already know how i acknowledge them as a friend. the fact that you are reading this blog makes you one of them. i know ive not been the best person to be with, not the first person you look to when you need someone, but at least im a part of your life, and im glad to be there, if you need me, ill do my best. promise.

[i dont know what came over me.]

2006-08-17T00:01:00.001+08:00

LAYER ONE:ON THE OUTSIDE
Name: Phua Hsuan Te
Birth date: 27.10.1990
Current status: married to my books
EyeColor: dark brown
Hair Color: black
Righty or Lefty: righty
Zodiac Sign: scorpios unite

LAYERTWO: ON THE INSIDE
Your heritage: chinese
Your fears: losing my family
Your weakness: caring too much
Your perfect pizza: hawaiian cheesy bites

LAYER THREE:YESTERDAY,TODAY,TOMORROW:
Your thoughts first waking up: do i want to wake up? no.
Your bedtime: when i fall asleep
Your most missed memory: sigh. east coast park. i know when where who what why. no one else does.

LAYER FOUR: YOUR PICK:
Pepsi or Coke: neither. but coke if i have to
McDonald's or Burger King: BK for the big kid
Single or group dates: groups.
Adidas or Nike: nike
Lipton Tea or Nestea: lipton
Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
Cappuccino or coffee: neither. they both taste liked drain water

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
Smoke: nope.
Curse: extensively
Take a shower: yes
Have a crush: cant afford to
Think you've been in love: to my passions
Like(d) school: definitely
Want to get married: sure why not
Believe in yourself: no one else is gonna, so why not me?
Think you're a health freak: thinking about it counts... right?

LAYER SIX: IN THE PAST MONTH
Drank alcohol: hated it
Gone to the mall: yes
Been on stage: fufilled my dream
Eaten Sushi: yeap
Been dumped: would you call it that?
Gone skating: yes
Dyed your hair: i want to

LAYER SEVEN: HAVE YOU EVER
Played a stripping game: haha... yes
Changed who you were to fit in: yes

LAYER EIGHT: GETTING OLD
Age your hoping to be married: 25

LAYER NINE: IN A GIRL/GUY
Best eye color: grey or orange
Best hair color: black
Short or long hair: long... and nice

LAYER TEN: WHAT WERE YOU DOING
1 MINUTE AGO: watching a ninja talk crap
1 HOUR AGO: chatting online
5 HOURS AGO: blowing my room up with my amp
1 WEEK AGO: studying bio
1YEAR AGO: having fun

LAYER 11:FINISH THE SENTENCE
I LOVE: grandma
I FEEL: zombied
I HATE: people who think theyre too good for you
I HIDE: my past
I MISS: you

[insonmia strikes the mugger.]

2006-08-14T21:01:00.000+08:00

hey took a picture of my fabtastic white board! let me walk your through it from bottom left.

1. globe. now i bought this globe way back when i was little. wanted to memorise the whole world you know?! big dreams for a small boy back then.

2. coke ball piggy bank. i drop my spare change there everyday when i get back home. collected quite a sum really.

3. live or die nike soccer thingy. printed it for fun. reflects my passion for soccer.

4. taming game booklet. need i say more?

5. bike key. the most valuable thing on my table.

6. AP booklets. yeap.

7. 3rd place for 200m dash. SJI TaF finals. memorable. totally.

8. sec 2? kindreds. picture of 203ers at the old hangout.

9. LoTR bookmark. courtesy of jianhao i think.

10. coffee bean servette. dont even ask...

11. sherries letter! one of em anyway

12. michelles valentines day letter! haha alot of work put into making that hor!

13. some "neoprints" i took with GRANDMA! xD

14. some fashion model thingy ad. liked the colour.

15. kindred spirits 2006. barely survived my pocket.

16. RENAISSANCE 2005. that one rocked.

17. my sec 2 birthday! it was LOADs of fun!

18. IJTP drama night. last minute decision to go cos SOMEONE needed protection from DARKmaul. haha who what when? only i will know...

19. cant see it well. school of rock postcard courtesy of my guitar teacher! thanks man.

20. mini toons discount card after buying 60 bucks worth of prezzies for the drama girls.

21. IJTP dance night. surrounded by chloe and her whole bunch of friends. in my own canteen. it was HOT though. hehe ooh lala.

22. sentosa ticket stub. looking after some kids from cassonaville childrens home. some were quite pretty you know...

23. gisellas letter. for my eyes only. haha

24. a bit to the right youll see my LLTC facil card thingy. great memories. good charlotte band in F1-5a. i was lead guitar. matheus vocalist. zachary rhytmist and engwei with the drums. xD

25. now surrounding gisellas letter are sissys manie letters from all over the world! australia... europe... and hong kong!

26. and the one on the far right is sherries postcard from malaysia. haha gotta love mail!

27. michelles farewell letter! thought it was quite colourful so it earned a place on my board! feel honoured! theres no space left!

28.to the left is my p4 photo. dunno why its there but who cares.

29. mask from ASEAN dance! cant forget that now can we?

30. mechanical sharpener since primary school. drawing... sketching... you name it, ive shaved it.

31. my watch. worn and torn by sun, sweat and sunblock. this watch has seen every single tennis match ive played since i joined tennis.

32. almost forgot! left of LLTC card is thr rock for good ticket i never got to use! man i couldnt go! couldve caught up with elena and her lot. haha

33. andd my wallet. birthday present from ray when i had no money to buy it. haha bought in may. and my birthday is in....

well thats it! wanna be on my whiteboard? xD not hard just have some memorable moment with me and voila! whee im so proud of my stuff.

[because memories can be very beautiful reminders of my life...]

2006-08-13T22:30:00.000+08:00

well so today i shall close with a great week! woohoo i liked it. one of the more memorable weeks ive had. well was at michelles blog and i made her 8th point! im SO honoured. haha

well hope the rest of you out there have been having a great week like me! xD so now im ready and roaring to do the final push for my studies! final hurdle everyone! whole stack of prelim papers are just calling out to me!

okie dokes not much left to say here! im just going to pack my bag and... go? oh yea guys go watch the click its really an adam sandler movie. super cliche comedy with moral story and all. yeappers so this is xd checking out.

[lead me not into temptation.]

2006-08-13T17:37:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey its been a really great week! dont you just HATE how weeks choose to alternate between good and bad? i mean just last week i was getting really moody over something... but i cant really remember and cant really be bothered. maybe its in my blog somewhere but what the heck! this week, is excellent.

first of all, you have NATIONAL day! uh huh people it was NATIONAL day this week and a good long mug followed by a sumptuous dinner with a view to die for! very beautiful day for me! really!

and then friday! CHINESE O LEVEL results. if you browse through my report book you will realise that i only score around C5 and C6. well! can you imagine, i scored my BEST chinese grade during my O levels! with a whopping B3! yea it seems pathetic to you A1ers but its a lifetime achievement to me! hooray!

and then saturday night, to the other 10+ people who were there, the ASEAN dance! woohoo i think the funkiest part was picking up this vietnamese at the drinks table! ok so i dont think she really liked dancing with me but at least she agreed xD its a start. somewhere... well yeap if you want reviews and rewinds you can get it all at the blogs of those who were there. i personally thought it was really great xD sound system sucked and the last part with the heavy beats... too much sweat and body odour put me off. x(

so yeap its been a great week so much that im in the mood (and already did) a maths paper 1 and 2 and e maths paper 1! haha and im gonna eat hawaiian cheesy bites later and catch CLICK. alright! see ya laters!

[whateveritisyoudojinx!youowemeadrink!]

2006-08-10T23:29:00.000+08:00

woah just got off an audio convo with fabian. super duper lame shit. now the fab is eating his tau hui. i have half a chicken pie left in my fridge. go figure.

[chinese results. pass. please. PASS. PASS. C6. COME ON.]

2006-08-10T22:48:00.000+08:00

Snow PatrolChasing Cars
We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

snow patrol. chasing cars. i learnt how to play it in one evening! kudos to me! now i need a bassist and percussion. haha.

[listening to: chasing cars. supermassive blackhole. cut up angels.]

2006-08-10T22:01:00.000+08:00

sheesh eunice. sheesh! SHEESH! this is yur fault! i hate chain thingamjigs!

Instructions:1. Mention the gender of your perfect partner2. Come up with eight different points of your perfect partner.3. Tag eight other victims to join this game4. Lastly, most importantly, HAVE FUN DOING IT

first point: female i think... male? no way.

8 points. i never really thought about it. but... lets see what i come up with.

1. she has to have great hair
2. she has to be enthusiastic and outgoing, not those shy types.
3. naughty. very general. haha let you imagine what i mean
4. cantonese speaking would definitely be a plus
5. spastic? got to be ok with the things i do. which is REALLY spastic
6. fun loving and loves to go crazy
7. got to focus attention on me! cos i love attention.
8. and if girls like handsome guys, i like hot girls.

there you go eunice. HAPPY? and unlike you i shall nOT pass the chain on. neeeeeh!

[sucking neighbours internet.]

2006-08-09T23:54:00.000+08:00

mmm. i feel like changing my guitar. this one feels a bit weak. plus my guitar stands broken (dont ask me how i broke it. i just did.) and i really need a new distortion pedal. this one just sucks ass. the only thing i like about my guitar is my strap. lol. white leather. sexay. i should get a new pick too. haha guitar makeover. soon. after the Os.

so many things to do after the Os. for now? all i have to do is mug. ill care about everything else after that.

[chasing cars ROCKS man.]

2006-08-09T21:15:00.000+08:00

hey everyone! happy national day! cant say there was any better way to celebrate national day man, really! lets take it from the top shall we?

well in the afternoon caught up with nadia to get some mugging done. one of the fewer mugging experiences where it was actually quite fun. haha cant even remember what we crapped about really... uhh... yea forgot. stupid coffee bean didnt have any NEW YORK FUDGE BROWNIES in stock. bah! anyway then her friend came so i left. was trying to race with this older dude back home but he was clocking it at around 30km/h... man really tough with a bag on my back.

the moment i got home it was straight up to the 22nd floor to have dinner with the whatstheirnames. haha and we saw FIREWORKS. WOAHHHH seeing em blast out from the field all the way out! ok i must be one of the other 4 million singaporeans talking about it but woah man! it was so bright it hurt my eyes! yeap and then had a nice chat with sissy while looking out the window... counting motorcyclists going homee...

anyway i gotta get some rest! gotta get up real early tomorrow to go catch the sunrise at the pier! its gonna be great!

[i look like a biscuit. realllllyyy?? geez... charlyn this is your fault.]

2006-08-08T23:44:00.000+08:00

life is simple, when you make decisions and have no regrets. life only gets complicated when you start looking back on what you couldlve done...

yea ok it didnt come from me, it came from sandy in the OC2. yeap its very deep and it goes a long way but i shall not dwell on it.

anyay today is national day celebrations day and i spent a good part carrying an old woman up to the hall. lex was rushing about directing people here and there so i just did what i was told and carried the woman. on the wheelchair la.

yeap not much after that went to catch tokyo drift with ray, AFTER we did some lidoing. SWIM TEAM ROCKS. haha. yea the show was quite good and then did some work before we got bored and went to cine.

ran into charlyn, or more like we ran past charlyn, who is the most oblivious toot on earth. u turned and stalked her for a good bit before holding cooking untensils and... o, you dont want to know. well i officially know what she thinks of me now, she thinks im a smily biscuit on the cover of a biscuit wrapper. ego boost i think not.

yeap went to catch ap, went out to eat, got home. now i need to shit.

[national day, have fun.]

2006-08-05T15:24:00.000+08:00

somewhere back i mentioned that my bike rocks and i totally love cycling. i still do! in fact went for a really long ride today which took me around an hour plus, just had some thoughts i needed to sort out and standing at the pier looking out into nothing is really relaxing saw mr. ghazali there too! in all his rider glory, a bit too yellow for my taste but if he likes to look like a chicken go ahead, cluck.

well now that sissy's gone i dont have anyone to go cycling with anymore, which totally bums me out. cycling alone is such a bitch, fun, but a bitch to cycle by myself. anyone interested? anyone? ANYONE? cycling is really fun, im serious! the long cycle to no where and back, dont know it till you tried it! i feel like going for round two! in fact, i think i shall.

[sunday. 2 pm. lets see whos up for cycling.]

2006-08-05T05:39:00.000+08:00

its not your fault, theres nothing you could do! things just turn out that way, let it go... just let it go... walk away. dont push it, not here, not now, theres too much at stake. dont do anything stupid, youve had your fair share of stupid things done.

but what is at stake? im tired of doing this, whats the point? what is it? can you tell me why im doing whatever the hell im doing? do you think i want it like this?

i know you dont, but you know its best for everyone else...

im tired of thinking whats best for everyone else. what happened to me?

you know, i used to have 3 way thoughts in my mind. haha. mild schizoprenia. lookie its 545 am and im asking myself why im studying. at 545 am... who does that...

[yea im sad when im on my own...]

2006-08-04T18:51:00.000+08:00

man its so boring im actually blogging. again. im so fricking bored that i feel like calling somebody. ANYBODY. but no. i must exercise self control and discipline. as much as i want to talk to somebody. (which is ALOT.) i mean im a really social person and i feed on interaction. put me in an empty room and ill probably die from loneliness in 12 hours. less really, studying has really taken a big chunk out of me. bleah. maybe i should call someone. i always wanted to call someone, i get so bored i could probably walk over to someones house and just chat. bleah. sisters not at home! i wanna cycle on my BIKE.

anyway while i decide on whether i should call someone, (ill end up talking to myself, surely.) let me digress on an issue. well today i had a career talk on medicine and well...

he said that if we wanted a career in medcine, then the passion has to be there. we cant be there for the money, for the prestige, or for parents opinion as a matter of fact. the last one applies to me so yea well, i was starting to think that being a doctor wasnt so bad, but really, its between 6 to 13 years of my life of studying. and when i get out the starting salary isnt exactly the greatest. i mean, come on lets get realistic. if im gonna start work at 28 i dont want my salary to be 1500 a month right? plus the hours are long, 24/6 and what did the speaker say he did in his free time on sundays? he plays soccer at sji. great. not the life i really imagined.

so what do i want to be when i grow up. if not for my parents, i really really want to be an actor when i grow up, or a director at least. i dont know, its just something that interests me. the passions there at least. but prestige and money? only my parents care about that. everything revolves around money nowadays. cant believe this shit. i suppose i like acting because it allows me to interact with the people i work with. i mean, can you imagine a doctor? everyone just sees him cos theyre sick and want something out of him. bah i know i dont really care about my doctor so yea. being a doctor doesnt seem all that great. so then you'll tell me, why not take up marketing or sales? public relations? well then now ill be the one wanting someone out of someone. i know meeting people is my hobby but still... it seems so conditioned, so under terms and conditions. so unnatural. maybe i should be a social worker, get to know kids and bond with them. o boy mum will really throw me out the window.

sigh. i dont want to grow up.

the futures bleak and i think im working for nothing. so what if i get 9A1s and 4As to my name? so what? it means absolutely nothing to me. im sure at NUS in my 5th year in medicine, ill be asking myself, do i really want this? and when i get my degree, ill most probably think, uhh... so?

back to the topic, i really really like being around people. i know people think books are my thing, but its a total ultimate pain to me. well... ok maybe i do it cos... my parents? my grandma? i dont really know. clouds of doubt are storming right when i need clear skies. 3 more months. hang in there everyone, including me. o bother.

[got your raincoat? i brought the umbrella.]

2006-08-03T21:00:00.000+08:00

if youre not here to read my posts, why are you even here?

anyway well for those who actually read horoscopes ( i know i know... its just so interesting!) well for scorpios it says:

give yourself peace by tuning out of the chaos. take a break from any drama that's going on. dont't wade into the fray. you're persuasive and magnetic, but the situation is more combustible than you know.

now, that is just so true! i mean really anyone who would be a relatively close friend of mine would know exactly what im talking about! seriously, looking at all the things that are going on, i really shouldn't be getting myself involved in them. all these powerful emotions and raging hormones, leave em at the door before you come in alright? i've got enough on my plate what with the prelims coming and all. emdd is really dramatic and boy oh boy did i have a flashback today way back to july the 8th... ms. deborah goh decided have a form tutor to student talk to me about that eventful night. what did we talk about? what did she say? well thats for me to know and for you... not to know. anyway aPARt from that, there are many million things happening in emdd and i find it amusing really, its like watching tv, but youre in the show and you can actually edit the storyline... hehe chit chatting with my cast mates will never be the same again, not that im suggesting anything of course.

well now that im adopting this attitude of indifference, life has really been much simpler for me... and boring. been studying all day and night and im proud to report that TODAY is THE DAY i will have NO smses. AT ALL. 3 more hours... hopefully nadia is busy doing whatever shes doing and wont foil my achievement. anyway talking about studying, i had a very interesting mugging session today. as luck would have it, i met andy on the bus today. now im not saying that i dont like andy, mumma just told me to stay away from shady characters. but o well my EQ kicked in and i sat beside him on the bus while finishing my chocolate icecream bread (what? its only a dollar... low calories...)

its quite surprising how interesting it is to talk to him, granted i was a bit tired from an overdose of the OC last night, but really, i thought id be in big trouble talking to him. but the spontaneous decision to go mugging at harbor front proved otherwise. its actually quite interesting to meet... the otherside of sji. now i know you think sji boys are all nerds and uprighteous fellows who tuck their shirts in all day (seriously, whats wrong with that?) but andy was like cyclops meets george bush. worlds apart. im not saying whos george bush or cyclops but yea.

anyway andy is really an interesting fellow and im sure hes a diamond in the rough, really really into the rough. i can see the brotherlyness and the nice guy in him, but he doesnt really seem to keen on his studies. seriously andy is a nice person, a bit vulgar at times but hey arent we all? anyway met amanda and pamela at macdonalds harbour front and well... started mugging? well maybe just me i did 3 chem papers and well whatever it was. andy was happily chattin with them. so yeap, not much kinda ditched them around 6 cos i was really losing it. quite interesting really pamela was a shotgun child. dads only 36 years old. cool. ok not cool but... interesting.

im having verbal diarrhoea so you can come back later if you wanna cos i have alot to digress. just alot of penned up thoughts i never really got to penning down.

moving on, you know, mother told me one day that while doing her study on people, she said that scorpios are sensitive people. probably cos i made a statement that i could sense her hesitation in her voice to go out for the IJ dance thingy. yea that was a long time ago but well... maybe i am sensitive. i tend to really overanalyse what people do and what they dont, and what it means. yea well... i might seem insensitive most of the times, but inside its just KILLING me. its part of the policy of indifference and it just drives me crazy to keep it all inside. but hey prelims are at stake so i got another 3 months to go. well its just that i really think alot and it kinda goes crazy and i just cant... focus. well maybe i can cos i purge all those thoughts with my iron concentration developed while mugging.

apart from that i just wanna give a shout out to my wife. GISELLA if youre there i hope youre studying hard... haha your husband misses you! (sounds corny. i know.) really looking forward to getting together again like... in 3 months. haha focus on your studies alright? im missing out on your spastic energy and your lameness... anyway moving on

oh shit what else was i going to say? oh yes erm... emddians spotted at parkway! holler if you can hear ME! yea right when i was leaving parkway caught a glimpse of em (after being there for 7 hours i see them right when im leaving.) yeap really been mugging hard and thats all ive been doing. kinda stessed cos bernard got 40/40 and i got 38/40 for some test. like... i used to help him out in his a maths. and now hes beating me? i am so proud! now of course i have to work harder now because like... hes getting better and i cant let him get the better of me now can i?

oh yea i got a really good dare for a truth and dare game(if i ever play)! i was kinda trying to see if i could go to the rooftop of my 23 storey condo(note. 23 storey) and well i tried both sides of the rooftop access and they were locked shut. but there IS a nice small window that i can peer through and see the field in the national stadium, that would be a nice view, if it wasnt so stuffy. anyway set aside my firework fanaticism i saw. in the staircase leading to the rooftop access. a flight of stairs that goes beyond... to the 24th floor. now. i only have 23 storeys. although i LOVE going to new places, it was dark and eerie and spooky and totally nuh UH for me to investigate. of course if youre an unlucky truth or darer... have fun going up there :)

been a really long blog and i still have lots to say. so its ok if you wanna go now. moving back to topic of emdd. i suppose id give the image of being really insensitive. but i really REALLY have alot to say. about everyone. not wei and lex of course. and well yea... id love to say them here but i believe this has gotta stay with non-cast members. cos my thoughts are really volatile and if any of the cast mates knew... well its just what i really think la. hopefully noone will get this far so thisll never be seen but i just wanted to get it out you know? of course im getting out that i have something to get out... well its a step aint it?

sigh. not really the way i wanted things to end you know? wei an will probably make fun of me still thinking about emdd like everyone else. but really... not the way i wouldve wanted it to end... definitely not like this.

sigh.

yeap. 2.5 hours and ill officially be... well... ignored by the world. like i never existed. you know how it feels like to believe in someone no one else believes in? you know how it feels like to have someone believe in you when no one else believes in you? do you know how it feels like to have NO one having faith in you? i dont really remember anyone not complaining about the price... anyone in sji that is. i was really deeply mortally wounded by that. shows how much faith people have in you. me. i have so much faith in everyone... and the least they could do was to just... be there for me. well. life's like that. suck it up soldier.

well. i believe in believing in others. everyone just needs someone to believe in them... i know the feeling.

congratulations of making it this far! ive still got alot to say... so should i just say it? dont you need to rest? go to someone elses blog! their life is probably more interesting than mine anyway.

still here? good. always wanted someone to just listen to me. something more chirpy to bring hte mood back up, erm. its the end of the week? ok so maybe im really hard up on things to be happy on nowadays. i dont even have any pie left in the house. hehe.

well sisters gone to stay in the NUS hostel. cant say that i dont miss her, she being my sister and all. i'll miss you sis! its funny. how i feel like everyones leaving me. i get the eerie feeling that everyones slowly fading away. people dont even say hello anymore! i said "hello good morning sir!" and the baldie just nodded his head and walked on. sheesh. whats happening to everyone! come on lifes not that bad if we go through it together! together... but... well... people just seem so distant you know? exam stress getting to everyone i suppose.

anyway on a lighter note im quite free right now so if you've got nothing to do... im free to talk to! trust me. its so boring at night when no one wants to chat, its a wonder why they go online in the first place.

[i locked the door, but i never really closed it.]

2006-08-02T18:24:00.000+08:00

you know, when you say goodbye to someone, as in youre done going out and youre leaving for your train etc... do you look back?

i realised that mostly everyone i go out with dont turn back to give that one final goodbye look, which totally sucks, i mean, why not? even my sister took a really long while to turn back at the airport. usually when i say bye i give a final glance... ok... well... dont you like having that one last glimpse? i usually wait for my friends to turn back and give the final bye look before i go... which usually doesnt happen, so what the heck, ill just be on my way. i mean why not? why dont people turn back and say bye? so... unfriendly...

random post. just something i was thinking about.

[been a while since this blog has been a blog.]

2006-07-24T18:04:00.000+08:00

hey y'all wassup? im just putting up a quick blog before i start mugging! anyway today we had a talk from cjc and they really enlightened me on what JC life is like. i knew it was going to be fun, but i forsee alot of stress in JC life. and in 49 days (according to kiatuck) we will be seating for our prelim papers. 99 days to o levels. hang in there everyone i feel the pressure as much as you do.

alright so heres the plan, i admit i have a very selfish stock of past year physics prelim papers and the answers to them which have actually given me a very big advantage over everyone. and i know you all want a hand on them, so heres the deal. you give me what i want, i give you what i want. so what do i want?

first, i dont want maths, i have alot of that too, i want biology prelim papers, chemistry prelim papers. with answers of course dont be stupid. year 2005, im trying to get RI ones from stuart and Hwa Chong ones from L3. but see how. yea and oh! elect history and social studies essays are a great plus. please. my humanities is going to die already i need alot of help on my essays and sbq. sbq questions with answers are greatly appreciated. ill trade it with my own papers.

ive got physics, chem and tonnes of e and a maths. which probably explains why im so good at it haha yea... so... yup thats my message so work hard! need to step it up we only got 1.5 months left and i havent finished studying! shit! how to get to vjc?

anyway talking about jc life, they said they wanted all round students for those interested in medicine... they dont want nerds. haha so heres just some day dreaming of my life in vjc. ill most probably join drama, then tennis. sorry but yea haha i love tennis and all but inside i always wanted to perform. haha big dreams ive got in my mind... yea... anyway vjc rocks! everyone go there! and ill see you there!

emaths, electhistsbq, biology. time starts... now.

[please dont strip my mind.]

2006-07-22T23:40:00.000+08:00

sigh... so as i sit here... staring into the blank nothingness in my room... i just feel... so... alone... its a feeling i feel every day when i sit in my room... i wonder what my friends are doing... maybe theyre doing the same thing... wondering what i am doing... sigh... or having fun without me haha its a saturday night after all. ah well... ill be sitting here... doing... nothing... being by myself... cos theirs no one else..

[and all i ever wanted... was just...]